Chapter 1012

There were many times I cried very hard in my dreams, only to wake up alone in some hotel.

I spent five years revolving around Chris. Now, when I tried to forget him, the pain ran deep in my bones and pierced through my heart like a dagger.

Every night, when I couldn't sleep because of him, every cell in my body was in pain.

Rationally, I knew I had to stay away from someone like Chris from the beginning. However, emotionally, after giving him five years of love without complaints, it was not something I could easily take back.

I hated and resented him, but I also loved him.

I hated that I had lost myself in this relationship and only had eyes for him. No matter how he treated me, I never thought of letting go.

I resented that he knew there was someone else in his heart, knew how deep my feelings for him were, yet shamelessly deceived me.

While he was enjoying my care for him, he was entangled in an ambiguous relationship with his beloved Faye. He never truly appreciated my devo