Burning Words

It is one of the reasons I love him, yet I feel so alone right now like no one has any idea what I am going through. The car stops. Looking up, we are already home. Getting out, I walk into the house. Not saying anything, I walk straight upstairs. I can’t face the questions right now. Getting changed, I climb into bed.

Right now, is the time I would love to fall asleep so easily, yet my mind just won’t stop. It keeps going on and on about everything I have done wrong that has led to this point. I can hear the faint talking downstairs. I can’t make out what they are saying and, to be honest, I don’t care.

They can’t be saying anything about me worse than I am already thinking. Looking around this room, I can’t help but wonder if our relationship is toxic. Sure, it might not be like me and Max but all these issues, maybe it is a sign? Laying here, every possible thought goes through my head - why it is my fault, why I might deserve this and how much I hate myself.