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19 Fin's Colours
February 2004
Alaina POV
I keep getting these random, very fleeting, emotions, as of late its anger, self-loathing, and the feeling of not being in control. Near the beginning of the month, I had a couple seconds of intense inexplicable pain. Had I not known better I would have thought I was in the middle of a battle! When I tried to talk to Cal about it, he pretty much just shrugged and walked away. I’m pretty sure he mumbled something along the lines of ‘that’s what you get for facking with the Moon Goddess’. Cal has been getting increasingly more agitated with me, very little patience when it comes to anything to do with me!
With that said I have to admit, I have been getting into more and more trouble. Some of it my idea, but in reality, most of it is Fins suggestions, so I guess I can sort of see a reason for him to be short with me. The well last fall was Fin, I just took the fall for it. I was able to play it off as a safety issue,
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