[34] Choices

The shiny silvery gravels crumbled beneath my feet lightly and then roughly when I intentionally stumped in grief. Remind me again how my life resorted to this?.

I felt my eye lid growing heavy, I raised my head gently to look at the clear ocean blue sky beneath which every known evil on the earth was taking place at the moment, I was fighting them away but I could still feel the tears brimming slightly.

I heaved in and out repeatedly so I could ease the painful heaviness in my heart, which was caused by years of pain and heart ache.

Standing here by his headstone was only just making everything more harder.

"Why mother?." I said in a broken whisper.

I gulped in pain and helplessly crumbled to the gravel filled ground of the cemetery, I haven't been here since the last three years, everyone told me it would be easier, if I let go, but truth is, I can't let go, not now, not tomorrow, not ev