Chapter Fourty Seven
What does it really mean? When one's heart beating so loud aside from being nervous?
Am I nervous?
But I can feel an emotion other than that feeling. An emotion that I cannot name. An emotion that this guy in front of me made me feel right at this moment.
It took me a lot of courage to compose myself."C-come again?" I badly want to punch my own face for fucking stuttering.
"I said... I want to court you because I like you," the beat of my heart turned louder that it keeps on echoing in my ears."I like you, Arnaez." He said it firmly.
I don't know what to react. What should I react? Do I need to react? Is this some kind of talk shit again? Is this a prank? Because if this is then, I might kill them right here, right now.
But the more I look for a hint on his eyes where I could find some sort of bluffing, the more I'm se
Chapter Fourty Eight"What are you doing here?" I welcomed him with a question.He paused and put his both hands inside his pants' pockets."I'm going to help you with your requirements." He said casually like we're in a business meeting.My brow shot up.Lia shierked at the side."Aww, so sweet of you, Yuki! You're very lucky, my bestfriend!" She winked at me while giggling."Hey, you want me to help you with your requirements, too?" Vencie put his arms around her shoulders.Her eyes glimmered as she turned to me."Is that true?" Vencie nodded, smiling at her."Aww, sure! Of course, why not? You should really help me and also, buy me soft ice cream, too, alright?""What?!""You will buy me ice cream or I won't talk to you forever?""Of course! I-I will buy you ice cream, babes!"
Chapter Fourty NineI'm staring sharply at the empty bottled water on my hand. Mixed emotions were running allover me that I can't define which one is worth to focus on. All I know is that, I'm not feeling good today. I have no sick, just... I'm not in a good mood."Woah! Are you literally crashing that pitiful empty water bottled?" Someone spoke up.And I realized I was holding the empty water bottled too tight that I can almost crash it. I put it down and stared at nowhere. In the side of my eyes, I saw her sat beside me.Lia tapped my shoulder."So, what's wrong?" She asked as if she's ready to listen to whatever my problem is.I stippled a small smile. It's really good to have someone you know you can lean on to, you can be with whenever you're feeling bothered. One thing I'm regretting the most is the fact that I used to doubt her, I used to judge her intention without
Chapter Fifty"What... did you just say?"I bowed my head and I felt my burning cheeks. Damn, embarrassment."Vanez..." he held the both side of my arms.I looked at him, too tired to fight."You know me. I'm not the type who loves to repeat words." I sighed.Silence embraced us.I heard him gasped from time to time, like he didn't expect those lines from me, like what I did is really unexpectedly. I played with my fingers. I can feel the continuous race of my beating heart. Like him, I can't believe it as well. I didn't expect I'll betrayed my own self and principles.I can't believe the walls I have built would be that easy to break.He climbed it... and then, broke it.All the words I swore years ago seems blowing by the wind. But one thing's I'm sure, this isn't good. Not so good."Can
Chapter Fifty OneI looked up and stretched my eyes to give the access of mascara on my eyelashes."There... perfect!" The gay makeup artist exclaimed after he applied it on me.I smiled a little bit and let him do the rest on my face. In front of me is the vanity mirror with ring lights on the both side of it. I can freely see my reflection on the mirror and I still can't believe I made it. Not that near yet but I'm proud because I knew I really made it.It's our graduation today and everyone's excited for the ceremony that's going to happen later. Finally, right? I know I can't make it with all by myself. Thanks to those who stayed until this milestone of mine. Without them, I don't think I can make it through... this far.The makeup artist's done with me after almost two hours. I thanked him and he even pinched my cheek for the last time before he left the room. I'm sur
Chapter Fifty TwoI turned and caught Yukenzo's alarming eyes. Lia didn't bother to go near me because her parents took her away already."I'm sorry, Van!" She continued shouting."Mom! She's my friend! She needs me!" and ranting at her strict parents."Don't get involved with their issues! Let's go, Rocelia, and stop being stubborn!"But I didn't mind though. Because all of my attention is on the only person in front of me. The guy I thought who has no skeletons in his closet. At all."I-I don't know anything, Vanez... I swear---" he shook his head desperately but I don't want to listen.No, I don't want to understand him. My emotions were burning up and all I can do is to look at him... with full disgust."Liar!" My thundering voice cracked a bit."I'm saying the trut--" before he could hold me, I started stepping backwar
Chapter Fifty Three|Yukenzo Cabrera's POV|I have a crush on her. I tried to control my feelings because I know it's going nowhere, she's not the type who will acknowledge it, she's different... unique, so unique. I can't like her because I dislikes her personality. Bad girls's aren't my type.But everything came crashing down that prom night event. I felt my heart sank and a very unfamiliar feeling were convulsing that time. I have praised her beauty before, of course only in my head, but that time... I felt like Ito forbidden if I didn't voice it out... how beautiful she is with that long crimson red gown.I thought... I just thought I like her. That I'm just attracted. That's why I confessed, everything I've been feeling about her. It's as if I'm ready to commit but not, it's confusing as hell but I just followed what my heart wants, for the first time.
Chapter Fifty Four|Vanez Arnaez|"Thanks, grandma." I muttered weakly as I took the cup of coffee from her wrinkled hands.I took a sip on it while staring at the chimney where the gritting fire reflecting in my eyes. Grandma sighed deeply and sat in front of me. The night were cold to handle, I needed to wear a sweater and cover myself with a furry blanket. It's raining outside, that's why. Every poured of the rain on the ground, on every area outside, waiting to be watered, were echoing in my ears and giving me nostalgic feels."Your father must be finding you ever since you left that place. Aren't you planning to come back?" She questioned out of the blue.I stopped from my little sipping to give her a glimpse of my attention. Her natural grayish hair was flowing on her shoulders. It's been a while since I went here and saw her, it was her 64th birthda
Chapter Fifty FiveI blinked for a seconds before getting up to bed. That's when memories last night flashed back in my mind. I fell asleep while crying in grandma's lap. I wonder if she's awake by now?I stood up and walked towards the window, I saw few raindrops on it. The sun was rising now, live and bright. I sighed and arranged the white curtains.Guess I need to live this new life. I need to prove that I can live without them, that I can be independent...I started fixing the bedsheets. My eyes darted to the picture frames on the drawer, there's a lot of mom's portrait, grandma and grandpa's picture, them, being together. A picture of a happy family. I took one of it and stared.Why does things need to be left this way? Why does they needed to leave that early? I wonder how grandma dealt with all the pain by herself. I'm guilty. I'm not even there to mourn with her,