I'd be lying if I said I wasn't nervous about the engagement lunch. I've been rummaging through my closet for an appropriate outfit. I mean what do you wear to your engagement party with a Don? I suddenly feel homesick, if things had been different I'd be surrounded by my cousins and annoying aunts in Italy. They'd be helping me get dressed up whilst gossiping about their neighbours. Unfortunately things weren't different, I'd always been destined to be alienated, secluded, all alone. I wish Val was alive, at least we'd have been together, secluded together.The life I lived was a lonely one. It's not like I even had a choice. Ofcourse I had friends but they only knew Lana Michaels, the goofy,crazy Lana Micheals with a perfect life. They didn't know Lana Morelli, the one who had killed and stolen for survival, the black sheep of her family who was harbouring intense bitterness and anger toward them. Lana Morelli who hated that her life was pathetic, the daughter of a monster. Lana Mor
These people are vultures. I know their type, I've dealt with their type. The type of people that tear you down from flesh to bone. People with critical eyes and big noses from which they look down on people. Stuck up rich people. I have the strong urge to shoot everyone in the room. As his doting wife to be I have my arm snaked around his showing our engagement rings for the camera. I have the fakest smile on my face. Roman leans towards me. I feel his hot breath fanning against my neck. "Ne khodi v les yesli boish'sya volkov." He whispers into my ear. What does that mean? Why is he speaking Russian to me when I don't even understand it? It sounds good though, him speaking Russian sounds really good. Curiosity fills me, I want to hear more of Roman speaking Russian. I tilt my head slightly so I'm facing his neck. Aware of the cameras and the crowd watching, I place a kiss near his earlobe. I feel his throat rumble, more like a growl sound. Maybe I'm just imagining it. "What does
The dinner is being hosted by a family restaurant. The second I step out of the car my nose is welcomed by a pleasant mix of aromas dancing in the air. The place is decorated with gorgeous lights and flowers which uplift my mood. The sight of the place alone calms me. As the saying goes, looks can be deceiving. Who would guess that such a cosy family restaurant would host the most dangerous of criminals that roam the streets? Monsters of every kind are hiding behind those closed doors. You wouldn't want to eat with mafia men even if you were on your deathbed, they are the most hazardous kind of people. In the past I used to dine with plenty of them, my papa advertising me like a shiny new toy at the dinner table and those men undressing me with their filthy eyes. Some inappropriately tugged at my dresses under the table. Yep, dining like this definitely brought back bad memories. I doubt any of them would try anything with Roman around, then again you can never be too sure that's wh
The instant we walk out from the elevator part two of our argument commences. "You're such an asshole you know that, you set me up." I point at his chest "You let me be crucified out there whilst you sat and watched. You're pathetic.""It's nothing personal."My blood is boiling. "Nothing personal! I'm your wife, you're supposed to stand up for me! Now they won't respect me." I fold my arms. I'm seething with anger. I'm trying to restrain myself from stabbing this man. He's so fucking selfish. "Those men are probably snickering behind your back, bad mouthing your wife. Don't you care about your reputation !""My reputation is mine. Your reputation is yours. How much they respect you will not hinder my power or authority. If you want respect, demand it. Fight for that respect. Nothing in this world is ever handed to you on a silver platter."His words hit like blows to the stomach. I have an arrogant man as a husband that barely has my back. How will I ever survive? He steps away f
I think I fell asleep sometime in between the crying. I'm awake now and I feel a little less emotional than before. My rooms pitch black and according to the clock beside me it's three in the morning. All traces of sleep have evaporated into thin air as usual. It's not like I usually sleep for longer hours anyway. Everyday like clockwork I wake up at three on the dot no matter what time I go to bed it's always the same time.It's usually because of the nightmares I have. It's been a while since I've had proper sleep. I slip my feet into my slippers and step out of bed. Unfortunately, I'm still in the dress I wore yesterday. A quick shower will do. I strip out of the dress and head to the shower. My body relaxes as the hot water massages my skin. What am I going to do about Roman? I sigh. I'll just avoid him, try my best to keep our conversations at a minimum. I doubt that will work. My stomach rumbles, that's right I haven't had anything to eat since lunch yesterday. I wonder if Rom
I didn't expect our destination to be the restaurant. I watch as he turns off the engine. Why are we back here? As if he could read my mind he answers me. "You didn't get to try any of the food last night." Was this another one of his games ? Were we really here to try food? Isn't it three in the morning? "We're just having food Lana."He pulls out an umbrella from the backseat. He steps out of the car. Great he's taken the only umbrella, now I'm gonna get soaked by the rain. I could stay here though. Just when I thought he'd abandoned me I hear a tap by my window. I turn and find him standing by my door waiting with the umbrella. I guess I'm really going to do this huh. I hope the food is worth it. I step out of the car and seek refuge under the umbrella. Roman and I are huddled close to each other, really close. I find myself engulfed in his scent. I could just drown in it, it's so intoxicating. We hurry into the restaurant with minimal casualties, casualties being none of us so
I haven't had any dramatic or life threatening experiences this last weeks. I guess my husband really is handling it. I'm getting rather bored and I can't help but feel useless. Plus my thoughts, my damn thoughts have been eating me up. Life's too peaceful, way too peaceful and for the past few days I've been feeling on the edge. I feel like something bad is going to happen. Roman's keeping me in the dark, on the sidelines ugh. I feel like I'm a side character in my own life at the moment. He's keeping me safe. I'm grateful, I really am but such security isn't going to last long is it? I don't need to be shielded. I need to face the danger eventually. It's better I do it with him instead of alone right? It's not helping that I barely see him and when I do he's either in his office arguing with someone on the phone or him retreating into the elevator doors early in the mornings. He's a busy man I know, I feel a little lonely in that big penthouse. So you can say I really don't see him
RomanLana has a way of getting to you. She sneakily creeps through your defences when you aren't looking. She infuriates me in ways no one does. She makes me lose control. I hate losing control. That's why ever since that morning I've been keeping my distance. I have to if I want to be in control. She has this charm that draws people in, an addictive charm. I nearly got sucked into it when I kissed her, I almost lost control. I had to stop myself from throwing her on the table and devouring her. Those soft fucking lips I want to taste again. When I planned this out months before we encountered each other I expected it to be easy, I'd co exist with her in the house, sort out her father then ship her off. But now, the possibility of shipping her off is slim. My eyes are closed as I sag back in my chair. Her long, curly, ginger hair comes to mind. I want to make passionate love to her and I want to encircle my fist in it. That gorgeous, glossy, thick hair. She's so breathtakingly beaut