Leah shoos Rhys away for the seventeenth time this morning and I contemplate telling her to just let him in. I know what Lyros is doing. I know why he made Rhys watch and why he made Adelaide witness him breaking my body. Everywhere still hurts. It all still hurts like hell, but it's not the pain I'm scared of, at least not my pain. Adelaide and Rhys are the two people who really make me feel worried. Lyros has set plans in motion and one of his plans somehow involves Rhys and Adelaide. He wouldn't have made them witness that if he didn't. Now all I have to do is figure out what. "Hey, I thought I asked you to go to sleep." I roll my eyes lightly at Leah's words and rise from my sleeping position to sit on the bed. She's barely stable on her feet but there's a glow in her eyes. She's spent. I'm sure she had to take better care not to mend something that wasn't broken in the first place, and spending more time healing me means more time expending her power. Leah is a fountain
"Running away wouldn't help too much would it?" Cain groans like he's heard this suggestion before and I suspect he has. Rhys's scent is wafting into my nose. I'm sitting on the floor outside Leah's infirmary, with my back to the door and my legs propped up in front of me. It's almost noon now and the rays of the sun have bathed the clouds in gold. A feeling of peace settles over me, but it's not the kind of peace you would get from everything being okay with your world. Nothing is okay with my world. The feeling that's wrapping me in its arms is one of weariness. That feeling you get when you know you have to do something but the opportunities for you to do it are looking next to impossible. There should be a way to solve all this right? "Adelaide?" Cain's voice brings me to the present and for a while, I'm lost in how helpless he truly sounds. I always imagined the emotionless tone he used was because he wanted to keep up his hard guy act, but maybe he doesn't speak with anim
I can hear her faking sleep but I can tell she's awake. Adelaide. The one who plans to make me crazy. It's disgusting the way I'm drawn to her. It's annoying the way I want her. I'm laying in her bed, with her smaller form barely fitting against mine though she keeps her distance. I want to see what makes her work. I want to see what's in her head and what she thinks of us right now. I could if I wanted to, my ability has been replenished since the last time I used it on Cain and I could draw Adelaide to myself right now, tuck her against the lines of my body and invade her in the most intimate way. People believe that only in the throes of sex can you see another person bared out to you, but I have something greater than that. An invasion of the mind is as complete an invasion as an invasion can be. There's nothing more intimate than knowing the thoughts of another. Their every word and every action. Their every move and the core of their will. Sunlight peeks in through Adela
"Sleep well whore?" It's the female warrior from the first time I had come in here. The red-haired one who I now know is named Lysandra. She's staring me down, like the mere sight of me disgusts her but I can tell this is something other than normal hate. Jealousy maybe? I don't know. She has no reason to be jealous of me. Even I wouldn't be jealous of myself if I was in her shoes, and her boots look perfect on her feet, as always. Lysandra's hand swipes across the table and my breakfast goes clattering down. She's always like this but today it seems she's extra angry because she slams her hand on the table, the loud bang ringing through my ears like a thunderclap, and her eyes land on me, filled with rage and fury. "I said did you sleep well little miss fuck toy?" I don't give her a reply though I want to. I want to tell her I know how much she sleeps around too. The maids deal in secrets and gossip and she hasn't been too kind to them. They speak of her in scorn-filled tones,
We eat in silence and I feel Cain squirming in his seat. If I was asked to guess why that is, I would say it's because he's never eaten with people around him. Me, him, and Rhys, I don't know if this is a group we've formed but I can tell he isn't happy. and it's not like he's sad to have us with him, it's that he's sad about what having us with him will do to us. Lyros would pick us up one by one and for someone who claims to have no feelings, Cain does. He hasn't mentioned or admitted to the fact of not having feelings to me before, but he acts like that and it's something that made me hate him in my first days here. He would always act cold and frigid, always act mean. I sigh and drop my spoon on the table. The Lycan king's home can be horribly depressing when you have something to lose, and what do I have to lose exactly? Well, I have my freedom to lose. I won't ever be free if Lyros finds out what I'm planning, he might even kill me, but if it means Cain will have a better li
Despite Cain's warning, I don't go to train straight away. I go attend to Lyros's summoning first. I don't know why he called me but when I got to his room it was clean. I saw him folding his shirts and putting them into his wardrobe. He asked me to sit and he asked how I was feeling, and then after, he told me what Cain wouldn't. We're going to a very far place. He didn't tell me where just told me to get ready for two days at sea. I'm to act as a companion of Cain, an ambassador from the Lycan king of the north to the lands inland. The Lycan king we're going to visit is named Rafie and he isn't dangerous, those around him are the really dangerous ones so I'll have to watch what I say, watch where I step, and also get ready to live without electricity, running water, and an air conditioner in my room. It's going to be like a whole new world but I feel pumped for it already. Safira comes for me afterward and I recognize her as the lady I had seen in front of my door yesterday. The
Safira wears me down to the point of exhaustion. At first, anger is what pushes me to fight back, somehow I feel I've gotten stronger than I was and faster too. Safira comes at me with punches and jabs but I deflect the majority of them. I imagine myself in Cain's skin and his shoes. I imagine myself as him and think of what he would do if he was me. The more I do this, the more I realize my errors. Cain wouldn't let emotions rule his movements. Neither would Lyros even though he has a temper on him. They would try to see what technique their opponent uses before anything else. Safia favors attack over precision. She throws powerful blows but they're also blind blows and there's a lot of times when she could have done more damage than she did with a misplaced punch. She strikes in my general direction and not in precise areas. She doesn't care if the blows catch me or if they do not, what matters to her is that she strikes and her strike hits me. She doesn't care where. With that
Safira drafts a training schedule for us and tells me it was fun training with someone that has some backbone. I'm not sure if she just insulted all the warrior Lycans in this building or if she insulted me and every other werewolf out there. She doesn't stay back long enough to clarify, she says it and she leaves while I stay there, panting. I lay on the floor and let the silence of this place fill me. For her to have her own training space, she must be really important to Lyros. The way she's also made me so aware of the fact that I am not supposed to be here is surprising. Up until today, I don't think I ever saw myself as the daughter of an Alpha. I sure wasn't treated like one in the pack and I don't think I've ever been the daughter of an Alpha. I've always been the pack disappointment, my parent's shame, and a failure to the moon goddess. I can barely feel my wolf during the full moons and when a shift does overtake me it's so painful it feels like it's going to kill me. I a