Alpha Keen POV
The minute I leave the room I regret it, and I try to calm myself but without her rose bud and vanilla scent I know there’s no use. Why do I keep fooling myself into thinking that I’m actually going to be able to give her up? I know that’s not possible so I need to just accept it, and move on. She is mine and even though I don’t want to admit it I am hers.
So why am I allowing my brother who has the power to actually steal my mate stay in his room with her while I’m out here hating myself? Because I’m completely terrified that if I actually give in to this mate bond fully I will no longer be in control of my life, and losing control is my worst fear. Plus everyone I’ve been trying to convince about the mating bond not being worth it are going to literally laugh in my face if I become one of those mate whipped wolves. I’m the fucking Alpha I can’t have people thinking I’m weak, and I can tell by how I crave to be near her t
Gemma POV As we left West's room hand in hand an overwhelming uncertainty crept over me that not even the sparks from Keen could chase away. He had shared all the reasons how he knows we are mates, and was determined to show me that West wasn't. Every conformation that Alpha Keen gave me about us being mates seemed to give him an ego boost, and with every testament that West wasn’t my mate came a wave hurt spilling into the room. West wasn’t letting his emotions show which made it tug at my heart strings even more. I don't understand how or why, but I could just sense his emotions which was freightening at first. I know that West and I aren't mates but there is something between us that is unexplainable. It feels like the moment you come home after being homesick, and that feeling of peace mixed with contentness that slowly washes over your entire being. If Keen was my mate which felt electrifying and exhilarating, than West was so
Gemma POV The pack doctors as well as the old Alpha and Luna told Alpha Keen that I should rest for a day before starting school just to make sure everything was on the up and up. I was annoyed at myself for being sad that Alpha Keen hadn’t come to tell me this himself, and I cursed at my heart for having feelings for someone who clearly didn’t deserve them. Instead of Keen both of his parents had shown up at my suite at 9:00am, and I could see now what West was talking about when he told me about his mother. I didn’t know their mom at all but I held a love for her within me that felt deeply rooted from the moment she smiled at me when I opened the door. The second after I had told them to come in she pulled me into her embrace it felt like what a mothers comfort should be, and it made me sad that my own mother obviously didn’t feel that way for me. She didn’t explain to me my past, but gushed over memories that she had of me with her so
Gemma POV I lift my head when the door opens, tears streaming down my face, and barely hand on by a thread. “Oh sunshine, your dad let me know you didn’t take news about my brother so well.” He bent down in front of me balancing on the balls of his feet trying to make eye contact with me, and places my small body in his embrace. He stands up holding me, and sits on the bed that’s when I heard the humming again. I only catch the sound for a second before it’s gone just like before, and then everywhere our skin meets sparks erupt like fireworks crashing into my body. He finally gets that eye contact he wanted, and he gives me a knowing smirk that only amplifies my confusion. How can I be feeling sparks that only Keen is supposed to be able to give me? “Don’t think about it to much okay. Just enjoy the fact that I can help you forget about whatever bad he’s done.” I’m sitting side ways in his lap in my pajamas, and as he slowly moves he’s hands up
Alpha Keen POV The doctor ordered Gemma to take a day to rest before starting school, and it was a good thing not just for her but for me as well. I needed to get my mind straight before being able to go forward with my mate the proper way like I should have done from the start. Madison was upset about what transpired the day before, but I didn’t really give a shit she was lucky I even gave her the time of day. She had to know this was coming, and I didn’t want her to give Gemma a hard time at school so I tried to smooth things over which didn’t work out. The girl either didn't understand when she wasn't wanted, or I had given her a false sense of hope that this was more then a fling. She was being a bigger bitch than usual (I’m really questioning why I thought this wouldn’t blow up in my face), but she was always the girl throwing herself at me from the moment she hit puberty. I told her that it was over and she w
Gemma POV Did I move to Satan’s amusement park or something, because I’ve never been on a roller coaster of emotions like this before? I don’t know what’s true from what’s fake, and apparently I am so desperate for love that I actually believed these God like men were interested in someone like me. My mother was right when she made me feel like i wasn't every good enough, because clearly I'm not if someone who is supposed to be fated to be me with can't even value our bond. I don’t know why I allowed myself to believe all his bullshit when he explained us being fated mates it even sounds like a load of crap, but nothing made sense right now not that it has sense we arrived here. I’m running a little behind due to Alpha Keen’s “punishment” or shall i say sadistic torture, and I’m pissed that my ass is stinging so bad from him spanking me that I know it will hurt to sit. Westley was waiting at the door like he said h
Westley Pov I wasn’t surprised when William showed up at school because I knew that Delta Everett was supposed to be head of Gemma’s security detail. I thought when I asked to take her to school Ev would follow us, or meet us at school. When that didn’t happened I knew it was only a matter of time before a seething rage filled Alpha Keen graced us with his presence, and I wasn’t wrong. I stare at my little sunshine when she comes out of the vice principal’s office, and she looks even more broken then when she went in. Why does he have to do that to her every single time, and doesn’t he know how stressed out she was already about today? I’m trying to hold back my anger so I don’t make her mood worse but when I notice the tears threatening to fall from her eyes my self-control is further tested. I flash a smile at her trying to cheer her up “I got our schedules my mom thought it best for us to have all the same classes just
Westley POV The cafeteria is buzzing with gossip as we enter together, and before we even get our food Madison blocks our path. “I still don’t understand how you’re supposed to be Alpha Keen’s mate? If you’re really his fated mate why you are all over his brother, and what the hell was with you guys nuzzling each other in front of our entire class? ….. Unless aww did our Alpha not like our new Luna.” She mocks Gemma with a fake pout, and once again Williams’s choices are fucking with my little sunshine’s happiness. “Shut the fuck up Madison your just jealous because she can get everything you can’t.” As I’m scolding Madison her jaw drops but as she makes a revelation in her head a devilish smirk spreads across her face. Gemma moves closer to me, and I hug her tight to my side knowing she has no idea what’s to come. Madison dead stares at Gemma like she’s about to kill her, “Oh really how is that possible sense I’ve already fucked her ma
Gemma POV I wake up in Westley’s arms in the pack house living room I look up at him and when I inhale deeply, I notice he has a more distinct scent that I’ve never noticed before. It’s a mixture of the forest during a storm and eucalyptus the scent is so calming I can’t get enough of it. When he moves his hand up and down my arm electricity so intense is left behind everywhere our skin meets. When I snuggle back into his chest and take another deep breath of his scent, he stares down out me smiling while the conversation continues around us. I scan the room noticing Keen is sitting right next to us looking empty or shatter, but when I try to pick up his scent it’s so faint, I can barely notice it which makes me confused. I can’t help but gaze at him checking to see if I can still feel his emotions, and I notice that although I can still feel his emotions it’s like a whisper not intense like it’s supposed to be. I look back up at Westley