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I knew it won't be easy for me. Nahuhuli kami ni Austin kasi maya't-maya akong tumitigil para magpahinga. He's just laughing at me.
"Come on. Malapit na," he said. Kanina niya pa iyon sinasabi pero ang layo layo pa pala.
"You kept on saying malapit na pero hindi naman..." I said and drank water on my tumbler. Pawis na pawis na rin ako. I'm just thankful that the weather's nice. Hindi masyadong mainit.
"It's true this time, though. And the view's nice for sure. Mawawala ang pagod mo."
"Pagod ko lang? Aren't you tired?"
"Slight," he answered. Okay... siya na athletic. Ako yata ang least at
Video "Are you sure you have everything you need?" Austin asked while helping me bring the paints to the compartment of his car. "Yup," I answered. I'm mentally checking if that is all. Ayokong may makalimutan pa. Lahat ng paint, dala ko na. Brushes, check. Pencils and blank canvas boards, check. "Alright. Get in, I'll fix these," he said. Sumunod naman ako sa sinabi ni Austin at pumasok na ako sa loob ng sasakyan. He'll drive me to Cainta. I accepted Sandro's offer to paint in an events place. I'm not sure if Sandro will be there but Nerika and I got an offer and we accepted. Thanks to his recommendation. Mabuti na lang din at pinayagan kami ng professors namin na ma-excuse. They are more lenient to us this semester. "You'll c
VideoThat was my routine for the next four days. I paint for like ten hours a day with little breaks in between. Kaya kapag gabi, diretso na lang talaga ako sa tulog. Even Nerika, whom I share a hotel room with, is also knocked out every night. Kahit na magluluto pa dapat kami ng dinner, e hindi na namin nagagawa dahil sa sobrang pagod kaya lahat na lang fast food iyong kinakain namin. I'm sure Austin will scold me if he knew about this. Napaka nutri-freak pa naman no'n."Wow. This is paradise," Nerika commented when she went to my work place. "Gi, dinner tayo nina Sandro. Kasama si Ms. Andrada and si Bea," she added, referring to the designer and the other girl who paints here as well."Sure. I'll just wrap up," I answered. Bukas, kaunting detalye na lang ang idadagdag ko sa buong mural. Just the shadows and little more h
EndMy tears kept on falling. Kahit pa mabilis kong pinupunasan iyon ay may panibago pa ring tumutulo. So many emotions were running through my whole system. Doubts, jealousy, and a slowly creeping pain. How could Austin do this?"Let me see it again. Baka hindi naman 'to si Javi," rinig kong sabi ni Nerika. I couldn't care about what they said anymore. Everything's starting to blur, my vision because of the nonstop tears and my rationality because of what I saw.In the video, I saw Sinara dancing near Austin in what seems like a bar. They were so close to each other that it's so hard to just ignore how bothering their setup was. And at the end of the video, they kissed... It was quick but a kiss is a kiss."Stop that!" Austin said to the recording despite the loud booming music
EndI woke up feeling extreme headache and soreness in my eyes. Nang tingnan ko ang oras ay tanghali na pala. Austin was supposed to pick me up today. Pero hindi na iyon mangyayari pa.I checked my phone and there was one message from him.Austin:Gia.Just that one. I immediately felt a lump forming in my throat. Pinigilan kong umiyak ulit habang binabasa ang nag-iisang mensahe mula sa kanya. Masyado ba siyang abala kagabi para iyon lang ang masabi niya? Was he too guilty? Ayaw niyang magpaliwanag o makipag-usap man lang?Ininda ko ang mga nararamdaman ko at pinilit na pumasok sa klase. I only have one class today. Wala na si Kuya Van at Aspen nang bumaba ako pero nag-i
Deserving"Hindi ka ba talaga papasok?" Mom asked. She's currently fixing my bed. Kahit na ayaw kong ibigay sa kanya ang comforter ay hinihila niya pa rin. She badly wants me to get up and go on with my life.I've been caged for the past days. It seems like my life stopped and I don't know how to proceed anymore. Parang simula noong dumating si Austin sa buhay ko, nagkaroon ng bagong sistema sa pamumuhay ko. And now that we're over, it's like I hit the hard reset and I'm back to square one. That's how he completely rooted his way into my life. Tipong ngayong wala na kami, hindi ko na alam ang gagawin ko."I don't want to go to school, Mom..."Chanston University reminds me of everything. I know for sure that if I go to school, I won't be able to learn anything. Kasi si Austin la
DeservingAgatha looks so immersed in the movie while Inigo's just busy eating. Kinuha ko rin ang inumin ko at pinanood ang palabas. Baka maintindihan ko naman kahit papaano.Pero hindi ko alam kung bakit parang ang sama sa akin ng tadhana nitong mga nakaraang araw... The movie revolves around a love story with cheating issues. And really, of all themes, iyon pa talaga..."I'll go out," bulong ko kay Inigo.I can't watch it. I just can't.Paupo pa lang sana ako sa bench sa labas ng sinehan nang makita ko na sumunod naman sa akin agad 'yong dalawa. Hindi na nila tatapusin?"Pangit naman no'n," sabi ni Agatha. I know she's just saying that. Sobrang invested niya kaya sa panonood.
SayangI never understood what Sandro meant. Or maybe I did. I just don't acknowledge it. Ayokong isipin. Ayokong bigyan ng pansin. I have so much to deal with right now."Damn. I think my brain will explode," sabi ni Inigo nang makalabas kami sa room. We just had our last exam for the semester. Halos lahat kami ay nawindang sa exam ni Prof. Alarzar dahil wala lahat ng pinag-aralan namin sa exam na binigay niya."Murder is a crime. Murder is a crime," Agatha chanted as she calmed herself down. Gusto na niya yatang patayin si Prof dahil sa exam na 'yon."At least it's done?" sabi ko. We're free. Sa wakas. It has been a tough sem. Kahit pa mabait naman 'yong ibang prof, mayroon din talagang exception."Gi, hatid ka namin sa airport?" I
Sayang "What's happening here?" tanong ni Austin, pabalik-balik ang tingin sa amin ni Sinara. By now, I know he already deduced that I pushed Sinara. I saw the longing in his eyes when our gazes met. But no, I refuse to be affected by it. We're done. We already hit the dead end. "Gia," he called. Sumulyap ulit siya kay Sinara na nahihirapang tumayo. If I know, she's just faking it. Hindi malakas ang pagkakatulak ko sa kanya. Walang wala iyon sa lakas ng sapak niya sa akin. "Well, nothing glamorous. Sinara just plagiarized my Madeline painting. She also attacked and slapped me. Nothing extraordinary... Just the natural embodiment of her trashy attitude," I said. "And Austin, there's nothing to talk about anymore." Tumaliko