I groan and jump on my bed immediately he leaves the room. I bite my lower lip hard, so hard that it'll soon start bleeding.What the hell did I just do.After all my months of claiming and making all my girlfriends believe I hate him this is what I pull out.His lips-Oh don't get me started subconscious! I dig my fingers into my skin hoping it will dig out some sense. Just one time together and I'm already fumbling so bad, what happened to the emotionally independent Bailey?I cover the sheets over myself and groan again. Just one day with him around me and I'm already sucking his face. I hit the bed furiously and sigh in frustration, anger, whichever. It's just so hard to be mad at him with his body all over my space. There's a gentle knock on the door then the key clicks and the door flings open. Bryne comes in with holding a pile of clothes in his hands. He drops the clothes on the bed without saying a word and leaves the room but not before I catch the sad expression in his eyes
"No. Please no!" I beg and hit the person, the beast on top of me. No, this can't be happening. No matter how much I beg, he doesn't budge, he continues what he's doing, like my voice doesn't even matter. Little by little, my body becomes stiff, I can feel everything that's happening to my body but I can't do anything to stop it, I can't move my body, I just lay on the soft leather seat, motionless, it's like I'm intoxicated, mentally unconscious but conscious to the continuous pumping and humping that's going on inside me.Slowly the person on top of me pulls out from me and for a split second I think all the suffering is over till I feel a deep and painful thrust inside me, making me scream. "No please" my pathetic voice pleads but once again it's as if I'm not heard. I watch helplessly, painfully as he chips away bits of my soul. I don't think I would be the same after this.He picks up a faster pace, thrusting deeper, faster, harder till I feel my insides are being pulled out. I
He made me trust guys again. He made me trust guys with golden brown hair-which he has streaks of- or any hair color. He made my relationship with my dad get stronger again, too sad it didn't last long because my dad died, before I could even feel guilty of pushing him away.Bryne cleans my cheek with his thumb and I notice I am crying. He plays with my hair and strokes my cheek with his other hand. I draw in a breath and inhale his scent and it immediately soothes me. I won't lie that I don't miss all this care and intimacy with him, I do, a lot infact I crave it everytime, the warmth our bodies get from physical contact, the sensation I get when he takes care of me. Damn! I still love him, and as many heart beats my heart missed when I said that I still want to stand on my word of not dating him again. But most importantly I want answers and that I will get now. "Bryne" Red caution Bailey, this may not end well, proceed at hearts' risk."Hmm" he mumbles half-heartedly"I want to-
He kisses me roughly, as if sending a warning to me. His mouth devours mine hungrily, assertively, possessively, deliciously, scratch the last word though.I really need to nag at myself for this but for now let me enjoy this kiss. I run my fingers up and down his back, feeling the hard, muscular texture of his back. I miss his skin, I miss watching him work out, I miss sleeping on his laps but right now I miss the angry Bailey. He breaks away from the kiss and I frown. With his hand still hooked around my waist, he pulls my back and rests my head on his chest, engulfing me in his hard chest. My hands loosely falls on his waist as I close my eyesWe stay there silently and peacefully for a while, I still have a lot to say but that can wait. I know he has things to say to me too but I really do not care right now, I just want to remain like this. His hands moves to my hair and he gently pats it, an action I think is his favorite. He runs his fingers through my afro curls, gently untan
I open my eyes slowly and feel my body on another. Part of my body is lying on top his body and his hands are on my back, locking me firmly to his body. How did we get here?The events of last night come flushing into my brain and I feel my cheek reddening. My eyes settle on his shirtless upper body and I shamelessly check it out. I carry my face from his chest slowly and carefully, not to wake him up I roll over and lie on my side.I admire his sinful beauty, if I can just touch it once more. That's right I can touch it, after all he's sleeping. I flatten my palm on his chest and feel each rhythmic movement his chest makes when he breathes. I outline his body with my hands, over the six divisions on his belly to the tattoo on his chest. I remember when he got that, I came back tired from the classes I had and he came into my house grinning like he just won a lottery. He made me close my eyes, trust me I still cheated, opening my eyes slightly to try to take peaks of whatever surprise
"Told ya I'll be back early" I raise my head from the magazine I am reading and look at Bryne. With big strides, he reaches where I'm sitting and leans behind me to kiss me and I flinch."Don't" I stop him and he shoots a confused look at me."What do you mean baby" his brows squeeze together"It's Bailey" I snap and go back to reading the magazine. He rakes his fingers through his hair "I don't get what's happening"I'll tell you, everything that happened earlier was a mistake. "Look" I sigh and stand up from the chair. "Don't think that you saying all those nice things yesterday will change anything okay? I have a boyfriend who I love so much and you know me well, I won't like to cheat on him with you" I cross my arms. His face drops immediately and he rubs his temple "Bailey please don't bring this up" he holds my arms "I know you're dating Cole but that doesn't change the fact that you love me. We'll work through this together." "Love you?" I scoff. Yes it may be true that I lov
BRYNE"I'm leaving" I freeze and my face drops immediately she says that. I know she's fighting back, I know she doesn't want to leave and it's hurting that she doesn't admit she still loves me.I open my mouth to stop her but I decide against it. She's so stubborn, she'd do what she wants no matter what I say. She stands up and leaves the room. I curl my fists. I want to hit something, I want to break something. I pick a vase to smash but I decide against it. I can't break more things, this is what got me here. I punch the wall, once, twice, thrice but it doesn't give me the satisfaction I need. I groan and kick the table. She literally kissed me! What else does she want me to do. I made a mistake but she keeps reminding me of it everytime. She knows how much I need her, how much we both need each other then why is she this difficult. I groan and punch the wall again. Calm down bro! Pull yourself together.Cole!I punch the wall repeatedly when I think of him. "Arse hole" I cuss
BAILEY"Where are you going?" he asks "Somewhere" I leave the room. Hopefully I'll remember the room he took me to last night.I stand in the hallway trying to figure out the room. Maybe this one. I open the door of a room opposite Bryne's room. I made the right choice. I walk to the board and unclip a note “I can't sleep again this night, I wish you were here, you'd kiss away the insomnia" I can't stop smiling today.I unclip another note "I'm sorry. I don't know how to tell you what I did today-" Before I can even finish reading the note, Bryne wraps his hands around my waist from behind and I lean into him."I knew you'd be here" he breathes into my neck and a moan escapes my lips."You're m-meant t-to be resting in you room" I can't even construct a correct sentence with him around me."I can't rest with you in my house" he sucks gently on my neck and I tip my head to the side, submitting to the the passion that's already taking over my body."I've told you before, we can