They were home today, I was so nervous. I hadn’t seen them in five years, but they were back. When they left I was only sixteen. Too scared to tell them how I felt, I wrote letters. I told them they were in my thoughts all the time. At first, they didn’t reply, and I assumed it was a little weird for them getting letters from someone they’d never met.
Mom died, dad remarried and Mary was lonely. She had two sons, not only had one of them joined the Navy but both of them. She’d spent all her life on the ranch but her boys weren’t interested. Something which had been in her family for years.
Dad offered to help and the next thing I knew they were getting married. It was nice at first, having another woman in the house. I didn’t have a wave of jealousy, but it was clear I wasn’t dad’s little girl anymore and I started to become a rebellious teenager. Until I graduated high school and left.
That was when things changed and ended up back to the one place I’d run away from, but this time there was no Mary and no Dad. I could have let the place sink. I wanted to leave, but guilt drew me back here. Running the ranch, the one that Mary left behind, and making sure it ran smoothly and grown some. Their livelihood was triple what it was when they were alive. I grew up more in the six months I’d come back home than I’d done in a lifetime.
Ranch-help came to help with the ranch and at times, they would think I would be part of the package. I was naive, but not dumb. I knew they thought if they got with me, they would not only have a roof over their head, but in time they would be running the ranch. I knew they didn’t want me, but just someone to fuck and get money from. I was seen as the rich one. The one single men no matter what form they were could get if their hearts desired.
I heard a couple of them talking, claiming that I was most likely a lesbian because I spent all day wearing dungarees and ranch clothes. Yeah, cause I worked on a ranch!
Idiots!
I didn’t bother correcting them, I let them think whatever they wanted and the only way I could think about something other than the ranch was to talk to my brothers. I told them things, my feelings, my life here hoping one day they would come back and run into my arms. They were my fantasies, my everything, partly out of guilt and the other part was because they weren’t here. There was something erotic about life outside the ranch. Everything felt sexy, even if I knew they were on the field and they were in danger all the time.
I knew they would survive, that they would come back, but I didn’t realize that day would be today. The pair of them are here at the same time. All I knew was that today was the day, I had to get everything ready, the house cleaned, ranch working like it should do, without me having to check everything, but then I heard Bex. She was the one person I trusted on the ranch running up the stairs, she wasn’t light-footed, and I hoped something was wrong with the ranch and they weren’t here yet.
“They’re here!” She screamed as she opened the door. Her short red hair stood up, and it made it look as if she was on fire. Her green eyes were bright, and even though I didn’t want her to know about the little crush I had on them. It was hard to hide it when I’d spent the week visiting the stylist, something I hadn’t done in over a year, not since Abe, one of the ranchhand’s wedding. Nor the manicurists, nor the spa which was over twenty miles from the ranch. She’d watched me get ready for their return home, and she let me know she knew. Even if I hadn’t told her.
'Actions speak louder than words,’ she winked at me, after telling me what I’d already known. I had it bad for my stepbrothers, I couldn’t deny it, even if I tried.
“How do I look?”
She giggled as she approached me. “A million dollars. I’ve never in my life, see your legs. I didn’t even know they existed.”
I nodded, as I stroked the dark red feathers which were halfway down my leg. I loved the sleeveless black dress with a few red feathers at the rim and completely risky to anything I have ever possessed. I had one black dress, which covered every inch of my body.
I turned and faced the mirror, thinking about the light highlights I’d had put into my hair. I’d trimmed, not cut it, but even then the stylist said it could do with more of a cut. She kept as much as she could, I couldn’t remember the last time I’d conditioned my hair. All this for them. I shook my head at the idea of it, it should have been for me. She told me that I had the most beautiful and darkest hair that she’d ever seen on someone from town. I should have taken it as a compliment, but in high school, everyone teased me about having gypsy blood. Everyone in town was either brown-haired with matching eyes or blond with blue eyes, there was no in-between or a mixture. No, that would only be present in people outside of town. I was associated with that trait with dark hair and blue eyes, and they let me think I was strange. The main reason I was dying to get out of this town.
“Are you ready to face them?”
She winked, “You look ready on the outside, apart from the red sexy heels you bought. Here, here, take it!” She shoved it in my hand still out of breath. Between her heart and mine, pounding out of control, I felt as if there was a bomb in the house.
“Go get them tiger!” She shouted as I put on the heels and tried to leave the room. The number of times I’d worn heels could be counted on one hand. I nearly fell down and found myself holding on to the door handle for life.
“I can’t do this.”
She shook her head as she came to my rescue. “Yes, you can. You’ve been working for this day for the last month. Don’t let me down now.”
It wasn’t about letting her down. I had to do this for myself. I’d planned it, and she was right. As tempted as I was to rip this dress off me, which left nothing the imagination, and just get my damn dungarees and sneakers. No, I couldn’t do it. I had to be brave. I ran a ranch single-handed, I could do this, I just had to have a little faith.
Fire, that’s what we called Bex when she was little. yeah, she was all grown up, but those green eyes and spiky red hair hadn’t changed since she was a little kid, not that she’d grown much over the last six years. She wasn’t wearing a bra. Her breasts bounced as she began to talk. It amused me slightly a lot more than I thought it would come back to this place.Vale winced, the same way he did when he was a kid whenever we came home. He loved being on the ranch, at school, anywhere but between these four walls. As soon as he turned eighteen and could join the Navy, he didn’t hesitate in signing up, not that he had any choice. I joined too. I knew he wouldn’t do it if I wasn’t with him. A burden I’d had since I was a kid. Vale relied on me to do everything, he said I was his right hand, and he couldn’t do it without me. Now, I was a lot more than that, I didn’t mind, he was my brother and I would give my life for him, even more so to turn back the clock.“Here she comes,” Vale whisper
I couldn’t see her, but I could hear Fire nervously pacing the room. She was making me nervous, I thought I was in a place, I once knew. It was unfamiliar territory, something which made me feel even more uncomfortable.“You look more like Pa than Dean.”I nodded, “Maybe, because, unlike Dean, I don’t cut my hair enough.”I could feel her studying me, she drew towards me like a moth to a flame.“It’s not just that. I think Dean lifts a little too many weights. He’s a lot bigger than you.”“Thicker.”“What? Just he has a lot more muscles. I could see it in the white vest he was wearing and his jeans. Everything clung to him. Whereas you’re just wearing a black polo shirt and matching pants, and they even look big on you. Like, you’re a lot smaller in the frame than he is.”I was joking with her, but then her quick response, told me that she didn’t get the joke. I wondered if she looked the same. Sure, she wasn’t the same ten-year-old, we’d left behind. Now close to seventeen or maybe s
Once we reached the barn, I knew things would change between us. He hadn’t hesitated in patting me on the butt. Brushing his arms against me, and even my chest, as he helped me change into my boots. He couldn’t keep his hands off me, and I did my best to flirt with him, from the moment we left the house. “I didn’t know if you wanted to see more of the ranch.”He growled as he stood in front of me. So, close that I could smell his woody scent and his breath smelled of beer. As if he’d had some just before coming to the ranch, even if it was a little early in the day.“No. I just wanted to know if you meant the things that you said in your letters. The part about wanting us back home and missing us?”I nodded, finding myself speechless. I’d given him permission to do what was written all over his face. He lifted me into his arms, taking me into one of the empty stable and gently laying me on the hay.He began to undress slowly, not to tease or be a tease, but because he could barely ta
They were gone for so long, that I was wondering if they planned to come back. I gave up sitting and waiting for them, so I used my time to explore the house. I couldn’t go into dad’s old room. For some reason the door was locked, I found it weird seeing as every door in the house was open.It didn’t take me long to figure out that Daisy’s room had completely changed. It used to be pink with all her awards proudly on the bookshelf from cheerleading, to track. She was athletic and we all thought one day she would get into it professionally, but none of her trophies were on her bookshelf. Even the bookshelf wasn’t there. It was as if her room was cold and bare. It was times like this, I wish I could see. My sight was impaired, not completely lost. So, I could make out objects in the light, but darkness was my main weakness. I used my hands to feel my way around it. Just a bed, and closet. It was almost as if she’d wiped the past out of the house. Out of her mind.My mind returned to the
The last couple of days since we were in the barn, not only has Dean been avoiding me, but Vale too. It was weird seeing him blind, it didn’t make him unattractive. If anything the complete opposite, he walked around with his head held high and he knew where he was going and what he was doing, without a guide.I would be completely lost if something like that happened to me. Things I took for granted such as seeing and hearing everything, he’d lost, but it didn’t phase him. The Vale I’d once known had been replaced by one who was more confident and had taken on a problem and rolled with it.So many questions were running through my head?Like, did the Navy make him this way?Or the issues of the past?They’d received my letters, I kept sending them not even knowing if they got them. The thing was at first, I didn’t receive a reply. I sent them as a way to express how I was feeling and to help with my internal suffering. After the death of our parents, I needed to talk to someone who k
The last couple of weeks, we’d formed some sort of relationship, and naturally taken up our roles in the house. Daisy no longer spent her time just staring at Vale, the complete opposite, she relied on him for so much, especially when it came to the books. Something she said she wasn’t that good at, when we were at school we were always helping her with her maths.“Is Vale, still working on the books?” I asked as I came across her. Since our time in the barn, we’d kept at arms length. I didn’t want to upset my brother and the way I took charge that day, really rocked the boat with him. He had a shit relationship with dad. I was deemed as the favorite, even if my recollection of the past was completely different from his. It didn’t matter to me, but they seemed to argue all the time. Sometimes, about important things, and at other times nothing at all. As if they got a kick out of arguing with each other. “Uh-huh. I can see his excitement of doing maths hasn’t failed since he joined t
I slept for a while, and when I woke up Dean was carrying me to the bathroom to take me into the shower. I was completely satisfied and didn’t care if he wanted to take me for a swim, much less a shower. I snuggled into his chest and placidly let him clean me.I looked up into his eyes, so beautiful and clear, and wanted to speak but he didn’t let me.“Later, baby. Later we’ll talk about what the future holds, what this might mean, and where we might all go together, but for now, we will explore each other, for now we find out what gets each other of the most. That’s all, alright?” He looked at me to check that I was on the same page.I nodded my head to agree.“Okay, good.” He smiled and we got out of the shower to dry off. When we walked back into the bedroom we found Vale naked with only the covers to hide his nudity, waiting for us with a smile. Sunlight gleamed in his light brown hair and I looked back at Dean, his hair darker since it was wet. It really was difficult to tell the
Dean was working on the ranch and Daisy and I was in bed, just holding each other and enjoying each other’s company. This was the thing I loved most about Daisy, I could always be me. I didn’t have to pretend or otherwise.“A penny for your thoughts,” her fingers were on my nose then they darted to my lips, and I knew where they were going so, I stopped her for a second. I just wanted to be in her company, as sexy as she was and she made me want to fuck her every second. For now, my cock needed a break, and apart from the first time we all did it, we hadn’t stopped or even spoken about the future.“You know, we never did tell you why we came home?”She moved on top of me, we’d turned her from being a virgin to a temptress in the short space of two weeks. I couldn’t believe we didn’t want to come. We shied away from being the one place we considered home, just too ashamed to face her and too afraid to face what could be waiting for us.“I know. The main reason was money…”“Oh.”I could