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Sophie
I drove down to IKEA, parked my car in a space, and made my way inside grabbing a kart. I am so overwhelmed with all that is happening, coming out here was definitely a game-changer for Nathan and me, but I had a good talk with him this morning before taking off, he surprised me by taking it fairly well.
It feels good to be back home, the more I roamed through these old streets, the more at ease I became. I pushed my kart around as I shopped for new plates and kitchen goods; Deciding on blue and light gray colors for my kitchen.
"Uff. I am so sorry." I said as my kart bumped into a girl that looked around my age. Her eyes went wide as if she had been startled.
"Oh,n- no, it's ok. Don't worry about it. I wasn't looking to where I was going." She smiled and moved her kart the other way. She had a kart full of stuff as well. She tucked a loose strand of hair behind her ear and vanished from my sight. "Ok, that was weird," I said out loud as she hurried away. I shrugged it off and continued to browse, picking up new cups, a nice coffee kettle, and deciding on these cute wine glasses.
I kept seeing the same girl over and over, she smiled awkwardly each time we kept walking near each other. Though I tried to avoid hitting her kart again, we kept bumping into each other and decided to stop to chat. She was really friendly, loud, but friendly. Her name is Roxanne, though she told me to call her Roxie. She seemed like she was one of those big party-goers who has no problem making friends everywhere she went.
She just moved to a new apartment a few weeks ago down by my old high school. I learned she has lived in the next town since she was born. Funny, I never saw her in any of the football games before, but maybe I did, I just don't recall seeing her. Apparently, she is one of the new teachers at the elementary school in our town.
I told her about Nathan, and how I will be enrolling him in school this upcoming year, which is only a few weeks away. She just so happened to be a first-grade teacher, which is where my cubby-bear will be going into.
"Please don't tell anyone though. I just got back a few days ago. No one, not even my friends know about my son. I'm sort of keeping it as a surprise when I see my friends until I go see them in a few days." She smiled with eyes wide open.
"Really? oh my god, that is going to be such a big bomb you'll be dropping on them. What about the dad? Is he in the picture?" I sighed and pursed my lips.
"No. We broke it off a long time ago. It's a long story." It's as if she sensed my discomfort with the subject. She immediately changed the subject. She was so fun to talk to. It's as if we had known each other forever. We walked around shopping for a long time, both of us joking around.
It would be so cool if my son had her as a teacher. She seemed so nice, I really liked her. She also told me she was seeing someone who just came to town and works as a lawyer in a new law office that just opened. Though she says it's nothing serious because the guy says he's not ready for a serious commitment. Guys! I swear all they want nowadays is to have a bit of fun and then walk away as if it never happened.
I was glad I chose to stay completely single and strived far away from dating. The last time I dated a guy, he acted like a real jerk, trying to yell at my son just for spilling his juice on his carpet when we went to visit. I knew he didn't like that I had a son, but was not about to choose between him and my son. That's when I went mama bear on his ass, broke it off, and told him to take a hike. No one mistreats my baby.
We shopped together for the rest of the afternoon and had lunch together. There was a nice restaurant nearby, so we stopped to get a quick bite to eat. By one, she got a phone call from the guy she was seeing and left. She gave me her number so we could hang out sometime.
I got in my car and began driving away. I turned into the parking lot of the restaurant where Nancy texted me she'd gone to pick up food for my son, herself, and Lexie. Nancy would be my son's new nanny from now on while I worked.
I turned to look for them inside since they were only getting takeout. My heart began to skip uncontrollably as I saw Logan and Troy sitting together inside, eating at the same table. I knew they were good friends now, but I still couldn't get used to seeing them together. I remember Logan thinking I was dating Troy. They constantly got into arguments and fights a few times.
But what really made me lose it, was that my son was right in front of them, talking to both of them.
I had to do something quickly. I dialed Nancy, Nathan's nanny's number, and shook eagerly in place. My nerves were getting the best of me.
"Hi, Sophie. Are you almost here? I just got our food, we're waiting for you."
"I'm outside. Can you please hurry Nancy? I'm sorry, but I'm in a bit of a hurry."
"Oh, sure no problem. We'll be right out."
Things just got complicated for me. I came back hoping Logan had a busy life in New York. What was he doing back in Lakeview so early? For my sake and everyone, I hoped that he was only here for a quick visit. If not, things were definitely going to take a big turn for all of us.
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SophieI was anxious for my baby and Nancy to hurry out of the restaurant before Logan decided to get up to leave or look my way. My nerves were eating me alive.Finally, I see the door open. Nancy had two big brown bags that I'm guessing had the food she had ordered for Nathan, herself, and Lexie. She held my son's hand walking along his side. Walking an awful too slow if you ask me. "Come on, come on." I fidgeted in my seat, speaking under my breath.He kept looking back and waving at Logan and Troy, though they were oblivious to Nathan's waving. I closed my eyes, cursing under my breath. If Logan so decided to look out through the window, I am done with it.That's it! The bomb will go off, exposing me and the truth about Nathan.I curved the car a little so I was facing away from the restaurant. This way, Logan would not be able to see me for sure.I unlocked the car as soon as they were in front. Nancy opened the door a
πππππππLoganI couldn't wait to get out of here. Apart from me wanted to run out there and look for her, but I knew I had to be cautious. I haven't seen her in so long. I'm unsure of what I will say when she's in front of me. What if she moved and I find she's not alone? What if she came back married, or engaged? I know Troy has great communication with her, but one rule I had to enforce was that he was not allowed to talk about her. It was too painful for me. I itched to know about her, the little that he knew, I wanted to know; all of it. But, it was doing more damage than good to me.I had to beg him not to tel
LoganI was shocked to see Sophie at the park. Talk about meant to be. I am not sure what to think right now. I mean, come on? I was trying to give her space, clear my head to think of what I wanted to say when I finally saw her, and here she was! At the park- with a son?She has a son. And not just any son! It's the same kid I saw at the restaurant just hours ago.A lot is going through my head. Troy said the boy looked like me. But- if he's mine, then? No, no no no, it's impossible. Sophie would have told me if she was pregnant with my baby. Right? Man! That- that would be heaven. But, there's a fifty-fifty percent chance that kid could be someone else's.Fuck! I have to talk to her. I need to ask her what's going on. And why the hell would she call McKenzie my daughter?I walked back to Amber to take Charlie back. This has been a long day for us. We both need to get home and think of a
SophieI was so mad as I left the park. Just when I had gotten my hopes up and was about to talk to Logan, Amber had to show up. But not just shows up! She....was with her daughter."She had a daughter! and she's...... She's so beautiful, Lexie. God, I feel like yelling, and crying so damn bad!" I ran my hands through my hair, unaware my little man stood by his door."And then... he still had the nerve to go after me? For what? To rub it in my face, that Amber and he still have great communication? To tell me that he has had a blast raising a daughter, without me in the picture? God, I hate this! I should not have come back.""Sweetheart, calm down. You're upset, but that doesn't mean coming back was a mistake. This is your hometown too."I couldn't help but cry silently.Nathan was silently listening, with his little pouty lips. I knew he was confused. He didn't know what just happened back there. But by now he figur
SophieNathan and I sat at the table to eat with Ashley and Riley. "I hope you don't mind, I took the liberty to order a few things for Nathan." She smiles and looks to him, giving him a wink. 'I'm not sure what you like, so I got a few things." She says , taking her seat closer to him and cupping his cheeks, bringing a bright smile to his face. "I got a few dishes. Pasta, chicken tenders with fries, a cold sandwich, oh, I ordered chocolate cake for dessert, do you like chocolate cake sweetheart? It's your dad's favorite." Her eyes filled with tears as she said those last words. It made my heart sink. I was starting to feel so guilty about leaving and not tell them all these years about my son."It's ok, I like everything." Nathan smiled and sat straight on his seat. The food soon arrived, and we all began to eat, making small, but pleasant conversations. Ashley hadn't changed much, other than her physical appearance. She was much more beaut
πππππππSophie"Please be careful, and if there is anything, and I mean anything you need do not hesitate to call me." Riley smiles and hugs me. There was certainly a lot that she made me think about. First things first, I need to find the perfect time to meet Logan and tell him the truth."I will, thank you, Riley, for...everything. And it was so good seeing you again, Ash. I'm glad you were still here to meet Nathan, before taking off to college." I said hugging Ashley as well. Riley took Nathan and picked him, he hugged her and placed his head on her shoulder. "Oh God, this kiddo is stealing my heart. I love you so much already, and I just met you. Nate, you have to come to visit me at my house soon as possible, ok? We'll make chocolate cake, and watch all your favorite movies, how does that sound, baby?" Sh
SophieI held my head tilted towards heaven and my hands tucked behind my back while the elevator made its way down. How could I've been so stupid and blind to fall for her shit? She sounded so convincing at the time, that she made me fall for it. I let her deceive me so easily. I should have known better I should have trusted Logan. God, I could kick myself for this right now.I made my way down and wiped my tears before the door could open and hugged Nathan soon as I got to the car. "Are you ok, hun?" Lexie asked, cupping my face and hugging me after I had helped set Nathan on his car seat and saw him strap his seat belt. "No, I'm not. I need to find Logan and talk to him. I need to apologize as soon as possible." I replied, wiping my stray tears away. She smiles and nods her head."Mom, are you ok?" Nathan asked, cupping my face with his little hand and pouting his little mouth."I will be baby, I will
LoganI'm so damn pissed off right now. I was unsure who I was madder at; Sophie, or Amber. I thought Amber had changed, I thought she was a friend. She seemed so sincere and seemed to changed her ways throughout the years, she's helped me so much. We both have been there to help each other as friends. She sure as fuck showed me otherwise today. She manipulated and used me for her own damn benefit.And Sophie? I felt like she truly let me down by falling for Amber's shit as well. She was so fucking smart, we stuck together through all our struggles, all our ups, and downs. How could she let Amber deceive her so easily? Was my love not enough for her to trust in me? I feel like such a fucking idiot.I wanted to go off on her so bad. I feel so damn desperate right now. What am I supposed to do with all this news? Nathan? He's mine... He really is MINE.He's such a cute kid. Every time I'd see him with his nanny, he'd bring a smile to my face