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Chapter 8 || Be Mine
The moment I realized that no one was coming to save me, I had become my own hero.
I have killed and slaughtered without care. The truth is I don't have any recollection of how or what did I do. I completely zoned out, consumed with anger and loathing. I only saw black as I felt myself drowning in a molasses-like daze. And there's no other way out but to swim through it and to fight it.
I wouldn't be here if I didn't break through that hell.
After I burned down that cursed orphanage I got thrown into, I learned how hard to live in a world full of deceit and greed. A world far more worst than the beatings I got from my father.
Those things were just physical.
The orphanage did a number on my head. The horrible things the orphanage did to me were something no child could ever forget. It was forged and branded on every fiber of my being.
The feeling of someone degrading you mentally and physically could slowly drain and kill a child's will to l
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