"Is that what you want?" He asked, his voice breaking.
I nodded and rested my face on his chest, I felt his arms wrapped around me pulling me closer as his body started to shake.
We were both crying as he held me in his arms.
For a split second, I wanted to change my mind. I wanted to take it all back. I loved him. I loved him with all my heart but he keeps breaking me.
"I... Gavin..." He stammered between his sobs as he opened his mouth to talk.
No! No! No! Please! I don´t know what I want anymore.
" Salvatore..." He took one deep sigh, holding his breath.
And my heart stopped. What have I done?
"I'm sorry, Alia. I can´t..." He pulled away from hugging me and placed his palms on my shoulder before pulling my body closer and crushing his lips into mine.
He kissed me and my mouth welcomed him. The familiar and comforting sparks traveled all over my body. He was kissing me passionately, not like
Thank you for reading and for sticking with us until now... :) We´ve moved up to #5 now on the GEM (New Books) ranking. Yey! The first book He´s My Alpha is at #4. Double Yey! I know some of you were my ALPHA readers as well, so I would like to thank you for giving GEMS on both books! Thank you for giving my Alpha and Beta´s stories a chance. :) xoxo, Cassandra M.
GAVIN I was alive but I don't feel anything at all. My mouth and my feet were doing their job but the rest of my body wasn't functioning. I felt like I was just floating, just going where my feet take me. I just did what needed to be done and after leaving instructions to Timothy, I said goodbye to my men and head off to my car. It would be a long journey back home. Home. Ironic. I don´t know where home was now. The only time I really felt at home, was when I have her wrapped up in my arms. The last five days were the best days of my life. It doesn´t matter if we´re cuddling or she was throwing dagger stares at me. Just having her around was enough for me. I went here without any expectations, but I got more than what I hoped for. We might not end up together but at least, she let me in her life even just for a few days. I have memories of her, I could live with that. Or maybe not, but I don't really have
ALIA "Get up! You´re wasting your days lounging here in your room. There are many things to do outside, Alia." Caspian said in a calm tone while he drew the curtains open. My eyes squinted as the sun´s rays touched my skin, which prompted me to turn around and bury my face in my pillow. "Don´t make me drag you out of your room. Two days of holing up here are more than enough." He was standing by the end of my bed now, arms on his waists as he looked at me. "It´s too early, Cas. It´s 6 AM! Let me sleep!" I grunted at him through the pillow. "I'll go down later." "No. You need to come out now. I have a busy day and I don´t have time to check on you later." He pulled the blanket away from me, but not completely, just up to my waist. I saw his expression soften when he saw the big shirt I had on me but it returned to stoic in an instant. I wondered if he knows who owned the shirt. I lazily rose from laying down and sat
ALIATen days.It has been ten days since he left and ten days since I started crossing out dates on the calendar for the days I haven´t seen him. I don´t have an idea why I was doing it, maybe I was just trying to move on and see how far I could go. But I kept failing every single day.I kept missing him. I cried myself to sleep again last night. His scent on the shirt I got from him was slowly fading and I was scared that soon I would no longer have any left from him.The package he left for me was three shirts from him. It made me smile, he was thinking about my wolf. He knew it was my wolf who wanted his shirt. But I wanted it too.But I haven´t used them yet.It was still there. I didn´t even take it out from the packaging, scared to let his scent out just yet. I would use it when the others I had no longer carried his scent. I was trying to hold on to the little that was left of him.Pathetic. That
ALIA I hurriedly walked-ran to the stairs up to the 3rd floor. My heart was pounding hard that it was the only thing I could hear right now. I couldn't wait to get my hand on the package. As soon as I entered my room, I slammed it closed and headed for my dresser. I carefully picked up the package I placed under my pajamas and positioned myself in the middle of my bed. I had no idea what I was expecting but I was hoping my hunches were right, that there was something more on the package and not just his shirts. I spread the package open and lifted the first shirt. My eyes widen at the sight of a neatly folded paper stuffed in between the first and the second shirt. How could I miss this? I immediately grabbed it and placed it on my chest like it was the most important thing in the world. Maybe it was. Gavin made this. Tears started to trickle down my face, preparing me for what I would read. This would either brea
ALIA I wasn´t expecting Caspian´s reaction after I told him I would be heading off to the Black Shadow Pack´s territory. I thought he would object and would ask me to keep still in the pack house. Instead, he pulled me up from the couch and hugged me. "You´re an adult now, Alia. Do what you think will make you happy. Just be careful. And let me know if you needed me there." He said in a low voice, I could sense his discomfort in my decision but it made me happy that he was not preventing me from doing this. I closed my eyes and nodded, scooting my head on his chest, inhaling his scent. "I´ll be careful, I promise." "Some of their warriors are traveling back to their territory tomorrow, I would ask them to take you with them. But I would send one or two men to come with you from our pack. That way you won´t feel uncomfortable during the 13-hour journey." I pulled away from his chest and shook my head. "No need, I´ll be fine. Daniella is c
JAKE Clair was straddled on my lap while I nibbled and sucked her neck, enjoying the little time we get from sneaking between work hours to satisfy our cravings for each other when I received a mind link from Matteo. He was assigned to lead the patrol by the border. I pulled away from Clair´s neck, eliciting a low groan from my mate but when she saw my eyes flecking white, she just scooted her body on mine and rested her head at the crook of my neck, resting her palm on my chest. 'Our warriors from Alpha Caspian´s territory have just arrived. But they have Gamma Carlos and Lady Alia with them. I already allowed entrance since they were in the same car as Markus and his mate.' My forehead creased, what were they doing here, and why Caspian didn't inform me ahead of time? Clair must have sensed the change in my mood, she pulled away from my neck and tilted her head to look at me. With a brow arched she cupped my face with one hand, confusion wri
GAVIN I was asked to pick up Lady Luisa today. And shehas been talking nonstop throughout the three-hour drive that I was starting to regret accepting this task today. Not that she was talking nonsense, in fact, she was smart for her age and talked a lot of sense. It was just that I wanted to have some thoughts just to myself, but I guess it wasn´t possible when you´re sitting next to a female. So I just let her burn my ears, answering like a robot when I needed to and smiling once in a while to make it look like I was listening. I let out a sigh of relief the moment we entered the border. Finally, I would be free of this female and I could have a little peace. But the moment we neared the packhouse, Kurt started howling in my head. He seemed excited and worried at the same time, that it bothered me. Something was off. And asthe packhouse came to view, I found my answer. Everyone standing out
ALIAI was expecting that Gavin would introduce me to the crowd as his mate but it didn't happen. Although I was trying to cheer myself up by reminding myself that we still have things to patch up and clear out first, I couldn´t help myself from being disappointed. I thought he was happy to see me but maybe I read him wrong.But regardless, I kept my promised and behaved myself that night.I saw him glancing my way but he never approached me at all. And those instances that I tried to reach him, he would suddenly disappear. I was starting to get annoyed already with his sudden change of mood. It was like we have this invisible tug of war, constantly pulling each other just to withdraw back. This has to end.The rest of the evening went on like that and I was thankful that Daniella was around. She was with me the whole time since Markus was hanging out with the rest of the warriors. I wondered if they have a habit of leaving their mates to be with th