In the heat of my desperation and mixed feelings, I was still taking yet another look at the video that tensed my heart.“I'm back, Tamika…” Dolph came right through the door with a slight look of excitement which usually meant that he was actually, overly excited at that point. “What did I miss?”“Well, nothing really,” I said as I put my phone away quickly. I had been watching the videos all over again, even after having promised myself that the last time would be the last time I would watch it. But there I was, watching it like it was some sort of movie clip that one would just watch over and over until they couldn't get enough of it.“So… what's the celebration face all about?” I asked as I put up a fake smile so that he wouldn't know that there was a cause for alarm. I concealed it perfectly, as he came walking towards me with his arms sprawled out for a hug. I just wanted to drown myself in his embrace without thinking about anything I had seen in the video. But that was impos
There was absolute silence in the room as I returned from the bathroom. I had washed up pretty well and I was able to regain composure after a few moments. But then, the way Dolph was staring at me had me feeling like I was some sort of specimen that had been placed in a glass for all to see. I didn't like it at all, but then I just endured it as I stepped toward him. The look in his eyes made it look like he desperately wanted to say something but was reserving his comments for peace's sake. “You're pregnant, aren't you?” He didn't sound shocked, nor did he sound excited about it. He seemed to be having mixed feelings about the most probable possibility. “I don't think so… I've just been feeling sick ever since…” I had indeed been feeling sick since that morning and I just didn't want to agree that it could have been a possible pregnancy from my end. I didn't know why I didn't want a pregnancy, but then, I didn't think I was ready in any way to have his baby. “Are you sure abou
“That's great news… what's with the sad tone that's making it look like you suddenly received some sort of death sentence…?” Julia said, using the exact words that Dolph had said to me. I was almost freaking out with each moment of that phone call where Julia seemed to be congratulating me on conceiving. It wasn't a bad thing entirely but I just had the feeling that it just happened at the wrong time. I just felt I just want ready for any of that. “Are you listening to the way you sound, Tamika? You need to cheer up. This is Dolph Martin's baby you're carrying here. You don't know just how many people wished they had the opportunity that you just got right now. So… just cheer up and accept all of the benefits that come with you being the mother of his child.” Julia made me feel like she was the therapist and I was now the patient.“Alright…” I sighed, as it was hard to cheer up at that point. I didn't know why it felt like I had just married my celebrity status. People knew the unm
“What was that?” Dolph's eyes narrowed as though he seemed like he could recognize that sound from somewhere. He could have probably still had memories of his ordeals with his victims and they were all playing back in his head. I had never felt so stupid and so irresponsible in my entire life. Why in the world had I forgotten to turn the volume down? The pregnancy suddenly made me unable to think well. There were just too many things that were about to go wrong in such a wonderful moment as that, and it was all going to be my fault. “It's nothing…” I muttered with a tone that almost made it clear that I wasn't telling the truth at all. I just put a little composure into it to make it a bit more believable, even though the time in-between the question and the reply had been too long for a genuine reply. I had messed it all up big time. “I was just watching something online and then I happened to stumble into some sort of weird online that made a lot of funny sounds…”At that point, I
What the heck had I done to myself? I wondered as I was all alone in the bathroom, staring at myself in the mirror with a sudden surprise that I just couldn't understand. It was quite like a dream that I had tried to go savage on Tamika. Why had that part of me suddenly been awakened at such a time as that? It was all looking like a seeming setup as I was trying to figure out what exactly had triggered that side of me. What could it have been?As I washed over my face with the water, I was soon playing it all back in my head and it was looking like it had all begun when I stepped into the room and heard the sounds of something that sounded like my past. I could almost link that memory with a smell that had come with the moment. There were a lot of things that made me feel like the man that I used to be back then. The particular clips that had played from Tamika's phone resonated in my mind with a startling kind of familiarity. “Get it together, Dolph…” I was trying to put it all b
There were no words to explain the excitement that came with the whole concept of finally having to plan my wedding. I wished I could share that moment with my mother. I was ailed by the fact that the only authentic person that I could share that moment with was Julia and no other person. My mother would be proud of me for being able to get into such a beautiful union with a handsome man which was going to change my entire life forever. The excitement in her voice when I had told her of my marriage still resonated in my head right there in the dressing room where I had been trying on the dress. That made me want to do a video call with her while I was trying the dress. I wanted her to share in every second of the thrills of my preparations for my big day. “Any problem ma'am?” the attendant asked as I suddenly stopped while trying on the dress. It was quite embarrassing that I was doing all of that right when I was supposed to try my dress on. “Oh no… I just wanted to take my phone
“Oh my…” the day was finally there and I just couldn't stay quiet about it. I had been amazed from the very moment I had woken from my sleep. There were just too many things that felt like I was about to explode from the explosion. I had hurried through all of my morning routines as I just couldn't keep the childlike excitement from expressing itself. I had skipped past some of them as I just couldn't concentrate on doing all of them. My meditation routine was almost impossible in the heat of the excitement. Julia had called me up by midnight to remind me of it, just in case I would sleep through it. There were just too many things that made it all look like it was going to be a bigger thrill than the one I had seen in those fuzzy dreams I used to have of getting married to Dolph. “Are you going to ever get off that mirror today?” Dolph asked suddenly from behind as he scared me out of my fantasies of how wonderful the day would be for the both of us. “There were a lot of things th
“Hair… check…” Michael said with a tone that felt like he was mocking me. He seemed like he was my customer as he was paying rapt attention to everything to every single detail of my appearance. His attention to detail had me wondering if he was trying to get married through me. “You know, no matter how you try to make me look like the picture of an ideal man that you have in your head, I'm still the one who's about to get married today…” I had to remind him of that as his perfectionism was beginning to get out of hand. “But then, you're doing quite a commendable job with what you're doing with me and what I look like.”“Yeah… you can always count on me if you want to ever do this again…” Michael was elated to be right there and even more elated to be able to take up the role of helping me get dressed up for everything that was about to happen. But then, he was just too energized to the point where he was saying a lot of things that weren't adding up to me. “Wait… just what do you m