LISAHillary chats away excitedly, filling Maria who just flew back from Paris in on what happened at the fundraising event."She was so beautiful with the children, they looked at her like she was some fairytale creature they couldn't believe was in front of them, speaking to them."Then suddenly,there's silence, so I turn my head and find them both staring at me as if expecting me to say something."What?" I ask."I just asked if you're okay, Mona. You seem a bit distracted.""I'm okay," I swallow.I've been thinking way too much about what happend the night of the fundraising event. The way Lore spoke about me,the look in his eyes and the way he took care of me after.I thought he was going to want more after the kisses we shared,but as usual, he stopped and took me to bed.ONE MONTH LATERLore has become a very good friend of mine, we are more free around each other and like to have dinner out at his restaurant,which now happens to be my favourite restaurant.I had been sneaking o
LOREI've felt the pain of losing someone before, a loved one. But the pain I felt when Mona confirmed she doesn't love me is something I've never felt before. It's a different type of pain, a pain I'm not sure I'll be able to recover from anytime soon.It was a day ago when I gave her the opportunity to leave me and now I expect the worst, if after all this time, after everything that has happened between us,she still doesn't have any feelings for me, then she'll take the divorce route.I tip back the glass of whiskey and hiss when the liquid burns my throat.I keep playing rewind on that night's events and each time,the cut deepens.This is what Gloria wanted, she said I would regret turning her down, well I don't, but the result is more than what she aimed for. Why did Mona leave the restaurant as though she was mad about seeing another woman touching me? That's what I thought at first, that's what everyone else thought,Until she said it wasn't the reason. Turns out she did it
LISAI look at Lore, who is fast asleep.I turn on my side and press my hands together, laying my head on them as I watch him sleep.He's so handsome, it's such a shame I can't have him for myself,he belongs to Mona, not me.Thinking about what I said last night, I warn myself never to drink again because of how loose my tongue becomes. With all this guilt I'm carrying,I've found myself letting out small bits of truth lately.He didn't pick up on it last night, maybe he thought I was talking about a past experience instead of the trickery we are webbing him in.My drinking was triggered because I saw a picture online of Silas with a woman at a restaurant, kissing. The headline being, "HANDSOME BACHELOR OFF THE MARKET?" after a few sips, everything came crushing down. The lies, the mixed feelings, when did my life become such a mess?I didn't realise I looked away from Lore because when my eyes lift,I find his grey ones watching me. We hold eye contact for long seconds until I finally
LISAThe glass slips from my hand and wine spills on the table then down on my dress.I push back the chair and hold the material away from my skin."Oh my God," Hillary stands and gets a wipe, helping me out."Oh crap! Are you okay?" Sandra stands too but Maria remains seated in place."I'm okay, it's fine Hillary, I can do it." I grab another wipe start cleaning my dress."Is everything alright?" Flynn, the man Hillary likes asks.Lore comes to my side."Just spilt wine by mistake," I say."Well,we should call it a night anyway," Maria stands.My eyes meet hers and in that exact moment, I know that she knows who I'm cheating on Lore with.I'm ushered into the car and my eyes burn with tears.He's been playing me all this time, he's been lying to me and sleeping with that woman.* *The Bidding* *When I see the ambassador and his wife walk into the room, my hand squeezes my purse so tightly. Tonight is the bidding of the items that were donated at the fundraising event for the orpha
LISAWhen the event comes to an end we say bye to our friends and my parents.I'm ushered into the car and my eyes burn with tears.He's been playing me all this time, he's been lying to me and sleeping with that woman.Lore gets in and starts to drive back home. When we get to the house, he excuses himself and goes to talk on the phone.I stand and head to the wine board,then I take out a bottle and open it,i drink the first glass in one go and then pour myself another one.Lore walks in and pauses when he spots me drinking on the sofa. After a few silent beats, he settles down next to me."Hey," she says softly and places two fingers under my chin, turning my head to him.I look at him through blurry eyes."What's wrong?"My lips tremble and I don't know what to say."You can tell me," he lets go of me.I sniffle then take another sip."Hey, slow downh" he takes the glass from my hand then places it down."How about I tell you a story, a story about two girls." He keeps staring at
LOREI thought we were okay, I thought things were finally coming together but I was wrong. I woke up to any empty space beside me, i searched the house only to find Mona gone, she had left breakfast prepared for me and a note saying she would be back home soon. My idea was spending the entire day together and making up for lost time,so I decided not to go to the office.But when she came back, she was an entirely different person, she didn't look at me the way she did the night before. I was confused and until now, I still am.She won't look at me for long, she won't even let me get near her. It's like we are back to square one, back to the days before we became friendly in our marriage.It's late at night when she walks into the room and pauses when she sees me standing at the window."Hey.""Hey," I watch her moving around the room. "I'll just go to the bathroom." I look at her hands and she's holding her pajamas, then she walks to the bathroom and closes the door.When she comes
LISATelling Lore I can't love him back wasn't the hardest part, the hardest part was seeing the emotions in his eyes, the hurt, the pain,the misery, the heartbreak and his hope shattering right in front of my eyes. I put that pain there, I wish I never did but it's for the best. If I hurt him this much, how much pain will I cause if he learns that I'm not the woman he thinks i am?That my family lied to him? That I, lied to him. He's fallen in love with me, with Lisa but thinks I'm Mona.I step out of the car and walk to the backyard, I stand near the pool, wrapping my hands around myself. I stand for about ten minutes, there's movement behind me but I don't turn around."Hey," I greet, even without looking behind, I know it's him."Hey."I turn around to face him, he moves closer to me and places his hand on my cheek, our eyes lock and then he smiles."I thought you wouldn't come.""I wasn't going to, but then I thought about it,we really need this talk." I place my hand on his wris
LISAI asked Lore if Asah could come stay over for a few days and he said it was fine, he didn't even look at me when he said those words to me and neither did he ask if i signed the papers. For the first time ever, I need to be with someone during the times I feel lost, Asah is the only person I know close to home and her light company might do me some good.My parents were delighted to learn that I asked for her, they think I'm now becoming the honourable responsible lady who they've always wanted me to be and that I'm finally accepting and embracing the life I was born in.They have no idea that I'm actually stepping down from it,which is why when they said if i want Asah to stay, that's okay with them. I just laughed it off and said thanks but I'll have to discuss with Lore first.I'm actually starting to think they've also started to believe this lie of me being Mona, and burying the real me, Lisa. When I think about that, my heart always aches.It's been four days, four days sinc