(S2) 28. ADDICTED 2

TRACE

At pinagbigyan ko ang sarili ko… sa bawat paglandas ng dila ko sa balat niya, sa bawat paghagod ng kamay ko sa mamasa-masa pa niyang balat, at sa bawat mahinang ungol na pinapakawalan niya ay alam ko na kailangan niya ako. She needs me but I badly needed her too.

I was kissing her thoroughly, and while licking her still-damp skin and reaching her navel to taste her there… flashes of Papa and Louisianna dirtying Mama’s room disturbed me…

Fuck*! I was trying to remove it from my thoughts because I don’t want to think anything aside from Chloe. And then… the fucking* arresting scene of what happened to me days ago sa hotel ni Jeru na resulta ng kagagahan ng babae na ito ang pumalit sa utak ko.

The betrayal. The pain. The hatred.

All negative emotions I am feeling towards Papa and Louisianna that I can control for all the years of following Lev’s advice… Now, because of Chloe, she made me remember it all! Damn!

The disgust toward myself because of Louisianna that Julie helped