I love you

Iris's POV

Lost.

I am lost.

I am angry.

Frustrated.

Today I realized when the pain becomes too much, then it doesn't sadden you but makes you feel an array of emotions, and finally, you feel numb.

And right now that's how I am feeling, standing on the porch of Anthony's house, and mopping on myself is one way I am trying to tackle this numbness and get rid of all these emotions. But I know, nothing is going to help me, nothing will help me.

Because this stupid heart of mine imprints Xander in all my emotions. Making me hate my feelings and emotions.

Why

Why I allowed those browns to engulf me in their soul-piercing gaze?

Why I allowed those two arms to trap me in their warmth?

Why I allowed myself to get addicted to those beautiful lips?

Why I allowed myself to get always bewitched by those dimpled smiles?

Why?

Why?

Nowadays I feel like, my existence itself is a question...

Why?

He left. Left like I am no one.

I am stupid. Of course, Xander who broke my heart right now, I mean noth