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Chapter 19 : He was so moody
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TROUBLED Chapter 20 : She was so desperate
Eric - I was trying on my tux when my phone started ringing. Hooray, we definitely know who calls around this time because of the prison schedule. You could call me ungrateful because she is the reason why I didn't spend four years max in prison. It wasn't my fault and I won't take the blame for it. I didn't put a gun to her head, she did it because she loves me and that's what happens when you fall inlove kids. You become a fool, might as well dress up as a fucking clown while at it. She did it willingly and I suppose I do owe her. Sometimes I love and care about her and sometimes I'm just extremely annoyed, irritated with her. I haven't seen her in years, totally my fault. I don't like stuffy prisons, if I go there, I know I will feel worse. My conscience will get to me and I don't like having a conscience at all. I like to push that away considering I'm a compulsive liar. I don't like thinking about the consequences my actions may have on people. I only think about me and my back
TROUBLED Chapter 21 : She was in denial
I purposely woke up earlier than her so i could watch her sleep and feel like the luckiest jerk in the world. She actually wanted me? This beautiful woman wanted me! She had not said it back as in 'Ich liebe dich' or 'I love you' but i respected that. I respected that she was still thinking about this as much as i was and figuring it out. Deep down, i knew this was just an excuse... figuring what out you may ask? I was well aware that i wanted Leona in every way possible but then there was Debby. My feelings for her were mutual maybe when i actually see her all my feelings will just come right back or not. Maybe not, maybe i just want to be with Leona then there's the thought that I felt this way about Leona because I was lonely? Felt needy? I honestly don't know. I was a confused cockroach and i was just dragging Leona into my pit of misfortunes. I am selfish enough to do that... selfish enough to not let her go be with someone who actually wants to stay with her... for as long as i
TROUBLED Chapter 22 : She was so hurt
"You know Eva right?" I nodded before realizing she couldn't see me, how stupid!"Yes, of course. Dee." I replied trying really hard to be enthusiastic about this conversation but it just wasn't in me. I bailed myself by walking around the pool with one hand in my back pocket, kicking a few stones here and there. From afar, I could see Leona through the sliding door playing with the twins. It was a really cute scene, my heart warmed up to that. It felt like we were our own little family. It was like a trial on how we would somehow act as parents one day. I found it really weird that I was actually opening up to growing up. Growing up, finding my girl... and well-Settling down.Shit yeah, settling down. I suppose when you meet someone who makes you feel a certain way, you just don't want to wait. You want everyone to know that they're with you and for a jealous freak like me; a fucking huge rock on her finger would be the official it, to chase these perverts away."One of the guards
TROUBLED Chapter 23 : She was distant
I stared-and stared. Looked intently. Leona came back last night, Sam drove her home. I didn't expect her to since she said she wasn't coming home. I got a little more time to talk to her mom, her dad had went straight back to work after their little vacation with Marissa and Frank. She had been giving me a cold shoulder ever since she found out that I was sleeping with her angel. She saw me as a bad guy. I practically was. I explained to her about my past and right there after she understood how and why I felt a certain way about the topic HIV. She was so consoling as she apologized about how ill-formed she had acted towards me. She even suggested a book for me to read, she said something along the lines 'it will give you inner healing to forgive your father and accept the things you couldn't change.' I read it through out the night, I didn't have much to do. She was right, it was actually good. I felt a tad bit better and less angry. I still hated him but this book gave me a dif
TROUBLED Chapter 24 : she was my everything
Tall.Dark curly hair.Smartly trimmed stubble.Strong built.There was no denying that we were related. Absolutely no way! We both resembled our fathers more than our mothers. "Oh hi Luka!" Leona said but Luka immediately pulled her in for a hug, I felt jealous. I felt uncomfortable."Traffic was just so bad, hope you didn't wait long." She asked with concern, one thing I loved about Leona. She was such a giver, always caring about the next person instead of herself and her own needs. "No no no, I wait ten minutes only now." Luka said excitement clearly vivid in his voice. I was watching their exchange from afar. I leaned against the car with my arms crossed. I didn't want to seem excited. I just wanted to look like 'whatever, I don't care.' "You're so beautiful, I don't think my brother could get such beautiful girl." Luka teased and I held back a sneer. What was that supposed to mean? "Thank you so much Luka." "You're just so glowing almost like you carry-" Leona immediately
TROUBLED Chapter 25 : He was so special
Why did it feel like my life was falling apart? Was it. Maybe this was the beginning of something good. Something great, something that will change my life forever. There were five things I had learnt during the past two and a half months with Eric or just from being with Eric. 1. Just because you love someone, it doesn't mean they're obligated to love you back. 2. You don't plan, never plan, live as the day goes by. You're in control but never fully in control of your fate. 3. Unplanned pregnancies are not always dreadful, if you have the right support system. 4. You can't and cannot choose who you want to fall in-love with. It's as if your heart has a mind of its own, you just follow the way as it leads. 5. Pushing someone away is harder than it seems. It's true what they say, if you love something set it free..After puking my guts out for the second time this morning , I looked at myself as I brushed my teeth on the mirror. This is really my life? This is really me. I'm going
TROUBLED Chapter 26 : He was so idk tbh
"How was Eric as a child, Luka?" My mom asked. I finally raised my head from my phone under the table because this was interesting. We were having breakfast outside on the porch. In our backyard, our house was pretty huge, there were often rooms, we hardly even ever used. My mom decided to be spontaneous because Eric's brother was around. It's as if Eric didn't matter because he was already family but Luka mattered. The reason I was staring down at my phone was because of the stupid group chat Laura and Sam had created. To cheer me up and to just make me laugh, I stifled a laugh. Eric was staring beside me, he probably thought it was Nick and it would be best if he thought it was Nick honestly. I turned the light for my phone down down down so I could only read whatever that was on the screen and not anyone else. My parents both sat opposite Eric and I. Luka day on the left side, alone. "Eric very quiet child." Luka said with a chuckle. "I hide my report because always Eric passed ev
TROUBLED Chapter 27 : He was so good in between
I looked at the fine looking man who slept beside me shirtless. Tracing a few of his tattoos on his chest. I could feel his heart steadily beating, steadily breathing. He had a tight grip on my waist. My naked skin against his, I had told him that I liked sleeping in my underwear because it was more comfortable. We came back home, Luka grinning from side to side.. he congratulated us. We passed by McDonald's, Eric gave into my cravings. I didn't think I would tell him but I did. I only realized I did when it was already done. He was acting so weirdly gently. He didn't want anyone passing by the sidewalk to hit me not even my shoulder. He wanted to ensure, I was comfortable in every given moment and here I was thinking he wouldn't want to be with me. When we came back home, I hid my ring. Intending to surprise everyone today. I felt so overjoyed just looking at it. Eric had done this for me? I had woken up early because my reality was finally better than my dreams. It looked super expe
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