Chapter 2 What have I done?

Brandon Taylor

I can't believe I'm lying on Michael's floor with my ass bare, bleeding and screaming in pain. That's not what I had planned for today. The plan was simple. I will " eat" a pice of my terrible and incompetent mate, then I will invite my friends to enjoy it. Michael confirmed to me that he would not stop me. She is his sister but he hates her with all his might. They had a wonderful relationship until the death of his parents, but after that he could not look her in the eye. Karen and Neill Parker died defending her, they died under Michael's desperate gaze, while his sister was crouched on the ground, completely lost. After such a scene, things can't be the same.

The plan for this day was simple. I rejected Elle Parker a year ago. Under any circumstances I will never accept her as my luna. The whole pack would pity me and that is unacceptable. My mother would never forgive me if I accepted her. I don't even want to think about how my father, the current alpha, would react. The only ones who know Elle is my mate are Michael, Jacob and Jake. And so it seems to me that too many people know. The plan was simple. I reject her, she accepts my rejection and I will be able to see my life further, and I will find a second chance mate. But what to see! This idiot doesn't have a wolf. Her pathetic and poor being can't even accept my rejection. I'm connected to her whether I want to or not. Because of her, I am denied the chance to be happy.

I set out to get her to pay for it. In the last year, I've done everything I could to hurt her. I know she suffers even though she always tries to look like she has dignity. The last time I beat her, she was in the hospital. my father found out and had to give me lectures about the character of an alpha, that I must to be impartial and show respect to all members of the pack. Elle Parker is not a member of this pack! Elle Parker stopped being part of this pack when we lost two of the most valuable people I've ever met because of her. My poor dad thinks I am treating her like that because of Michael. Beyond that, she has to pay because I can't hold a mate in my arms because of her.

So the plan is simple. Today we will take care to hurt her so much that she will either choose to die or find a way to reject me. I don't care what she chooses, but my connection with her must stop today. I feel her pathetic emotions, I feel her pain ... although I rejected her I still feel her. I've had enough. I want to be happy.

But the plan from home does not match the plan of the fair. I know I am worthy of all contempt for the way I have chosen to make her suffer. I would never do such a thing to a woman, but in this situation I really have no choice. I don't want to live like this my whole life. The fear from her eyes almost made me stop but I know what the stakes are. I only owned her for a few seconds. I felt like I was losing my soul the moment I mated with her. It all took less than a minute, and those seconds where the happiest seconds of my life, my wolf was purring in my head when she suddenly hit me with extraordinary force. I'm an alpha for the name of the goddess! I'm the strongest man in the pack, I train for hours every day. How is it possible that such a weak being can throw me like a straw doll ?! I felt all the bones crack when I touched the ground.

I can't see because of pain, I just can't open my eyes. I can not breathe. I lie on my bare ass with my pants down on Michael's floor. I hear screams around but they are the screams of Jake and Jacob.

What happens?

"You better help him, I don't think the doctors want to find him in the naked ass." I hear Elle say and then everything turns black and I feel the darkness completely envelop me.

After two days in a coma, I recovered only to find out that the whole pack knew that we had been attacked by 50 rogues while we were in Michael's house, which is located at the edge of the forest. Who the hell can believe that? Couldn't Michael and Jake just think of an better excuse?

"Son ..." I hear my father say calmly. "I want to know what happened in Michael's house."

"Michael has already told you what happened. I have nothing more to add." I tell him without looking into his eyes.

"When rogues attack you, they don't let you knock out, Brandon! When rogues attack, people die. They can't let you stand and go. I want to know what happened."

"I have nothing to add, Dad, to what my friends have already told you." I say calmly, looking him in the eye this time.

"I don't know what you did, I just hope that the your act will not turn against you. You are an alpha for the name of the goddess! Assume the deeds committed if you did something wrong. Assume success and mistake. Be worthy!"

How can I be worthy when I know that I raped a woman under the amused eyes of my friends? How can I confess to my father that I've rejected my mate in the last year? I know that even though he probably doesn't like her, he wouldn't agree with my actions. He has been pressuring me for a while to look for my mate and he has already announced that he will not let me take over the pack without a mate near me. Being an alfa without a luna is dangerous and difficult to control.

Suddenly the door opens and I see Michael entering.

"I'll let you talk. Maybe you'll decide what happened two days ago."

"I told you what happened two days ago, don't worry," I say, already slightly annoyed.

"Goodbye, alpha," Michael says respectfully.

My father nods and walks to the door when he suddenly stops and looks at Michael.

"Did you find your sister?" he asks seriously and worries.

"No, alpha. I'm still looking for her." I feel how my blood begin to boil in my veins.

"What do you mean you're looking for her, where is she?" I ask visibly agitated.

"I think the rogues took her with them ... two days ago." says Michael, stammering. "When the doctors came, Elle was missing."

No, no, no ... she can't be missing ! My plan was different. Where did she disappear? I need to know where she is. I need to always know where she is. if something happened? What if she really was attacked rogues? What if she dies? I feel my air disappear from my lungs and I choke.

"Brandon, are you okay?" my father asks me slightly panicked.

"Brandon!" Michael shouted, but it's too late. I fainted again.

When I woke up my parents were sitting next to me. I can't look them in the eye. I know they have a lot of questions. The way I reacted to the news of Elle's disappearance is not normal.

"Are you ready to talk?" my father asks me.

"Brandon ..." I hear my mother whispering as she strokes my forehead. "You know we're with you no matter what happened in Michael's house. You're our son and we love you. You know you can tell us anything." my mother says lightly.

"I'm not so sure, Mom ... some things are beyond acceptance." I tell her, closing my eyes.

"Brandon, I don't want to use my alpha command on you or your friends. Elle Parker has been missing for more than two days, Michael's livingroom was in ruins, and you and the boys look like a plane crashed on you. What happened there has nothing to do with any rogues attack. Do I really have to tell you to talk? " he says so angrily.

I close my eyes and begin to tell them what happened. I can't look them in the eye. I tell them everything from the moment I found out that Elle was my mate until two days ago. Nobody says a word. Only my mother's sobs can be heard. I know she's crying. I don't know why she's crying. She hates Elle just like the rest of the pack.

"Are you telling me that you found your mate a year ago and didn't say anything? Are you saying that you rejected her without giving her a chance? Are you really telling me now that for a year you have abused your mate? Are you telling me you raped your mate two days ago? " my father asks angrily. I've never seen him so nervous. My mother grabs his hand and tries to calm him down, but he pushes her away from him.

"Brandon, are you stupid or are you pretending? Oh my goddess, I raised a fool! Fix it, Brandon!" says my father punching the wall." No son of mine can be so depraved as to do the things you just told me. Fix all!. I don't care what you do or how you do it, but things can't stay that way. If you're ever going to be the alpha of this pack, even though I doubt after everything you've told me you've been able to do, you're going to have to do what I've been trying to teach you since your first day of life. Be worthy! Be impartial! Respect your pack and last but not least do not disregard the ways that the Moon Goddess has prepared for you. No matter who your friends are and what personal feelings you have, first of all you are a leader, a model! Shame on you! Fix it or you can say goodbye to the alpha position in this pack. "

"Love ..." I hear my mother say.

"Shut up, Thalia! I grew up a rascal! If Elle Parker had been our daughter, and you were Karen Parker,and you would have known that her mate abused her for years, rejected her, raped her. ... what would you do? Congratulate the guy and tell him he did the right thing?"

Dad comes out of the room slamming the door, and Mom comes out after him, but not before she whispers, "I know your dad is right. I know you were wrong, but this girl is ... she's too much to bear." and goes out crying.

I'm angry, I'm panicking ... I feel so much contradictory feelings about Elle right now. I mindlink Michael and call him urgently.

"You found her?" I ask him as soon as he enters the door.

"No, you can say the earth swallowed her. Your wish has come true .Elle is completely out of your way .There's no sign of her. She took some clothes with her and left with absolutely nothing. She has no money, no food, absolutely nothing. Brandon, do you think she is in trouble? ”Michael asks me, slightly puzzled.

"What are you doing, Michael? Why do you look at me as I am the only culprit here? You agreed with everything I did to her. . "

"I know ... I'm just as guilty as you of what happened. As long as she was silent and submissive and keep her mouth close, I had no problem making her suffer. I don't know how to explain it to you, but when she told me that she hates me , at that moment I felt something broke in me, I felt like my hatred for her seemed to never exist and I remembered all the moments from my childhood when we loved each other and I protected her. My parents died for her and I made fun of their sacrifice. I don't know.I didn't believe it for a second for her to tell me in front of me that she hates me. I always believed that my sister would always love me, no matter what happened. "

"Michael ..." I say slowly, "We'll find her. She's alive because our bond is still intact. That's for sure. That's all I need to know. If she's not with us, she's safe. What can be worst for her than being my mate? " I say bitterly.

"We must find her, Brandon! Oh my goddess! What have I done?"