34| Freya

I scurry out of Rafe's office while contemplating what just happened inside. Rafe's civil behavior is bothersome. And my behavior? What was I doing? I could have moved back right away, but I was standing still and staring at him in a way as if it was my first time seeing him.

I groan at my behavior. My embarrassment escalates. I have been unable to hide my stupid side from him. First at the hospital then today again.

At the hospital, I have disclosed to him that I'm an emotional wreck. I have shown him that all those past months my resentment for him was just a facade, in reality, I care for him. It was true from the beginning. I just didn't want him to know that. Despite my anger towards him, I knew I could have never really hated him.

I walk towards my office while thinking about hiding somewhere and not to face Rafe ever again.

That false accident news had unshielded my vulnerabilities to me as well as to Rafe. Last night I understood what it's like to experience your worst fear.