Affliction 6

Aurelia P.O.V

"Ma'am, your mommy is calling you to her office." I looked at one of the maids of this house.

I just nodded to her and didn't ask why my mother was calling me, I already know the reason why, it looks like she saw my report card and I'm going to hear a scary sermon as soon as I enter in his office.

I just took a breath before standing up, while walking to mommy's office I was telling myself not to take too much of what she had to say, that I should get used to it because in the 22 years I've been living in this world, I don't have anything else heard more if not the hurtful words.

But I also think that it's not my fault that they brought me back to life, I also ask myself if I deserve what the people around me make me feel, but I also think that I am grateful to them because somehow they were able to clothe me and feed me.

I know it's a mistake, but why do I have to feel that every day, I can't take it like a stone and not be hurt by what they make me feel, even if it's every day I don't get used to it, it's just too painful.

Before I go to sleep, I always ask 'when will I be able to feel the true love of my Mother, when will that time be when she will be happy because she had an Aurelia in her life?'

I closed my eyes tightly before I had the strength to knock on Mommy's door, then I slowly entered. I first looked around the entire office before my eyes landed on her desk, I think that I am the unlucky human being in this planet when I saw my Grandma that she was also here, and they were both now staring at me. I just bowed down because it looked like this would be the end of me.

"Isn't there a change in your report card, Aurelia?!" That was Mommy's greeting then she threw the paper she was holding at me.

"Mom, I'm doing my best-."

"Best?! Is that it? Your grades were like this last semester too! Take pity on this Aurelia! Aren't you ashamed?! We are a family of lawyers and this is all I can get, right?!”

"Maybe you just want to get married and stop studying so that you can be of use to this family?" I looked up at Lola before shaking my head quickly.

"No, I promise, I'll fix my grades, I'm just having a hard time-." The second time, Mommy interrupted what I was saying.

"That's exactly what you said last time! You are absolutely worthless! You have given nothing but shame! You bring shame to this family!” I just bowed and closed my eyes so that my tears wouldn't fall, I just said that this will be over and I can go back to my room.

"You really are an inheritance from your Father, you are both a shame and a useless person, I don't even know why your Mommy took you, I wish you had just left you with your Father after all you are the same." This is the line of my Grandmother who is also Mommy's Mama, yes, they are both hot blooded to me.

No one really likes me in this household so I don't know how I stayed here for so long, they don't seem to be afraid of losing me either, maybe when I'm gone, they won't do anything and will be happy because they lost someone this life is a burden.

"I don't really know what else to do with you Aurelia, we give you everything, you already have a nice place to stay, this is the only thing that will replace that, it's still sloppy! Study hard so you can be worthy!"

"Yes, Mom." I answered briefly while bending down, I didn't have the courage to look at her because her eyes were really scary.

"Get out of my presence and maybe what else I can do to you." I nodded and suddenly turned away from her office.

"You must evict that girl from here, she is too old to stay in this household." That was the last thing I heard from Grandma before I finally got out of Mommy's office.

I sighed when I got out. That's when the tears I had been holding back started to flow. My tears kept falling as I walked to my room.

When I got into my room I immediately fell on my bed and then I released all my anger.

The truth is, my grade will be really low, I don't even know, but I'm really doing my best to pass the course I didn't like.

Yes, I didn't really want to take Political Science as my pre-law but I was forced to because that's what Mama made me take, as she mentioned, our family is already in the line of Lawyers so what she wants to happen is to become I am also a lawyer, but I know for myself that I can't handle this course, even pre-law I'm already struggling so much what if I'm already in law school and still have the bar exam, maybe they'll kill me if I don't pass this course.

I don't really have the right to make decisions in my life, my whole life is controlled by the people around me. As for my Father, I know him but I have not been with him yet because Mommy and Grandma don't want that to happen, but I know that even if I end up in my Father's or Mother's house, they will treat me the same because even one they were not happy when they have me.

When will my life be at peace? I don’t know anymore, I just want to be alone get rid of everyone in my life right now.

End of Chapter

-QJG