Pain Beyond Description

Even though Mathew meant his words when he said he wasn't good enough for Emily, he still feels lost.

He had gotten so used to being with her, always excited to see her when he went out of the pack, but now there's just nothing to go back there for.

He should be pleased, since he has always thought about leaving the pack for good some day, except he is not.

Emily had become the light in his gloomy world, a promise at happiness, helping him to forget that he lives a fake, miserable life. Everything about him is fake, and he hates it.

Now he is back to living a life without hope, but there is nothing he can do. He keeps hurting the girl and she has enough problems and trauma in her life without him adding more. If he is hurting her like this when she knows nothing about him, he can't imagine the pain she would go through if she found out exactly who he is.

Despite making a clear decision to cut things off with her for good, he still wants to see her. He keeps checking his W******p to se