Chapter 148 | This is Happening

Violet

I don’t understand why this keeps happening.

I sit in the bathtub as silent tears pour down my face and I drain out the water that is mixed with my blood again.

This is the third miscarriage I’ve had.

I don’t know why. We don’t try for kids, but we’re not not trying and I just… I don’t understand why we haven’t had any yet.

Phoenix lightly taps on my door and calls my name, “Violet.”

I let out a shuddery breath before I tell him, “Come in.”

He walks in and sees the blood and immediately knows what happened. He walks over to me and wraps me up in his arms. I lean into him as I cry, “What’s wrong with me, Nix?”

He rubs his hand up and down my arm and says, “Nothing is wrong with you, my love.”

“Why can’t I carry a baby?”

He kisses my head and says, “I don’t know, Vi.”

We fall into silence. How many more losses do we have to go through? How much more can my heart bear?

I climb out of the bath and get dressed, making sure to put on a maxi pad in case I have anymore blood loss. I pu