Wren is three days from her heat. Not that I haven’t been fucking her in the meantime. I can’t seem to get enough of her. Wren enjoys our sex, and I know she loves her free time from the den. However, every time I lock her back in the den and leave her, she cries. I don’t know if it’s her heat making her emotional or the mate bond affecting her. Wren is an omega, so between her natural need for an alpha or other high-ranking wolf coupled with the mate bond, I’m sure it’s making this harder on her than it is for me. Resisting the bond is becoming harder, but being an alpha wolf and an Alpha Supreme, it’s easier for me to push the bond aside and focus on my natural instincts, which is to fuck. I did give Wren a few of my shirts for her to have, knowing my scent will help soothe her. I’ve caught her sleeping in my shirts more than once. I actually find it cute, and it shows her innocence. She’s fragile, even if she desperately tries to act like she is strong. Wren is strong for an omeg
Before I know it, it’s lunchtime, and I find myself wishing I was going home to give Wren her lunch. We have fallen into a routine, and it’s slowly becoming comfortable. However, I can’t blow Graven off. We have our tradition, and I don’t want to blow him off. He also would be suspicious about why I wanted to go to my omega over spending time with him. As much as Graven adores his omegas, he would never blow me off for them. So, I head to meet Graven by his car as a sinking feeling of dread creeps over me. Was it because of Wren or something else? The only other time I skipped bringing Wren a meal was when the rogues attacked, and I felt shitty for not leaving her at least snacks. By the time I got home to her, she thought I had left her to die in the den. This time I left her plenty of food and water. Goddess, I’m making her sound like a fucking pet. How do other alphas and betas do this with their omegas? I know I’m not the only one to lock my omega up when I’m not home. Still, it
I slept most of the day, which isn’t surprising as I try to gain strength for Crimson to shift. I want to shift sooner rather than later, as Alpha Valen promised he would take me out into the woods for a run. We have to stick closer to the house as he doesn’t want any border patrol to see me. He’s still adamant about being a gloried breeder. I know that’s what I originally wanted, but the mate bond demands more. I can’t help it. I want to be his mate, or at least be treated like I’m his mate. I want out of this damn den and to be treated like I matter to him. Sometimes he’s soft and gentle with me, like when he gave me some of his shits so I could have his scent to soothe me. Other times, he’s distant and acts like I mean nothing to him. It seems he is torn between accepting me as his fated mate and treating me like I am, and sticking with keeping me as a glorified breeder. It’s not like I expect him to make me his Luna if he marks and claims me as his mate. I don’t know the fi
I leave Wren in the den and head to bed. I showered before I went down to see her and bring her dinner. I didn’t want her to have to smell Lorna on me, not that I think it made a difference as she was still in a foul mode. I can’t believe she punched a hole in the world. I know omegas can be possessive, but I guess it’s amplified with us being fated mates. It never even crossed my mind she would be able to smell Lorna on me. I still think of her as a regular omega with dulled senses. Her wolf being awakened makes her have the senses of a regular werewolf. It didn’t help that Lorna was hanging on me all day, no matter how many times I tried to get her off me. Either way, Wren is pissed and upset with me. It wasn’t even my fault. I’m even more pissed at Graven for this fucking ambush of a bullshit date. He has to pull this shit right before Wren’s heat. It might not have been so bad if it was someone who didn’t know me. Then there would have been a shot of the female behaving and n
The last few days have been rough. Alpha Valen has been trying to talk to me about the date he went on. All he’s giving me is excuses. He couldn’t say no because it was Beta Graven, and they are friends. What I think it really comes down to is Alpha Valen not wanting to admit he has an omega as his fated mate. Either way, it was wrong for him to go through with the date because he has a fated mate. He is the Alpha Supreme. He doesn’t have to do anything he doesn’t want to, even if it’s his Beta and best friend. I’m in my heat, and it’s a different heat. It’s more intense and harder to simply sedate it with masturbation. It must be because I’ve found my fated mate. I know that when an omega is marked and claimed, her heat intensives as the primal need to give her mate an heir becomes a priority. I guess that’s what happening with me. I assume Alpha Valen claimed me in some when we were first intimate, which explains why my wolf was able to awaken. I guess with fated mates, one only ne
I wake to Wren in my arms. She’s still sleeping. We stayed in the same position all night. Her warm body against mine feels good as her sweet honey and almond scent surrounds me. I can see why Obsidian has been begging me to let her sleep with us because it was the best night's sleep I’ve had in forever. I do wish we were in bed. This bed is comfortable, but I’m used to my bed. However, I’m not sure I’m ready to let Wren have that type of freedom. If I fall asleep, it gives her free reign of the house and, even worse, the chance to run. I can’t risk her running. I’m not sure she would be foolish enough to run, but she might after the double date fiasco. I know she doesn’t trust me and is skeptical of everything. She was already skeptical, and now she is even more skeptical than before. There has never been much trust between us. Between her breaking one of my pack rules for omegas, her hating how our society is run combined with her lack of trust in the higher ranks, and now this dis
I hop in the shower needing to clean myself up. Between sweating and sex, I stink. Plus, a shower was a way for me to get away from Alpha Valen for a minute before my next wave of heat hits me like a damn freight train. Goddess, is every heat going to be like this from now on? I don’t know how I will run away if my heat is this crazy. Usually, with my heat, I crave any high-ranking male, but now that I’ve been claimed by my fated mate, I only want him. I might have to look into buying pills that will suppress my heat. They are hard to come by, but they do exist. It’s one of those things that once you know where to buy it, you are going to go. I’m surprised Alpha Valen spent the night with me. It’s probably why I slept so well. I can’t deny that his presence and scent are soothing. I’m sure he only stayed in case I was hit with another wave of heat. No doubt he doesn’t want to miss his chance to get me pregnant. I’m sure once I’m done with my heat will be back to sleeping in his own b
I wake up next to Wren. I promised her last night I would stay with her through the night. I know her heat makes her vulnerable. I didn’t want to leave her. Addimidtly I don’t think I couldn’t have left her last night. I slept two nights with Wren, and I don’t want to sleep without her. However, I miss my own bed. With going away to Alpha Ian’s pack, I want to spend the nights leading up to the trip in my bed. The problem is I can’t trust that Wren won’t run. It’s harder for her to sneak out in the den because while I can’t lock the door, I can activate the alarm on the door. The alarm would wake me up. Wren doesn’t know I have an alarm on the door. I know Wren doesn’t trust me. I can’t blame her. I’ve given her no reason to trust me, and with how omegas are treated, why should she believe that I would keep to my word? While I still don’t know if I can fully embrace Wren as my mate, I am going to try. I know I shouldn’t care that she is an omega. However, it’s hard not to move past i