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Fifty-three: Xander
I had committed the same mistake again. When I was on the beach with Ayla, I could see it in her eyes. If I stressed more and showed her how sorry I truly was, she would have come back with me, but I couldn’t do that to her. I was a criminal just like all her family. I hurt her. I terribly hurt her when I sent her back. I remember experiencing unbearable pain during the three weeks she was at her family’s pack and I thought that it was because of the mating bond, because of Mirk not being able to handle her being away, but man… I was so wrong. What I felt was a reflection of what she was going through.
Guilt had been eating me alive since what she had told me. She was being tortured and I was at my pack, contemplating the whole idea of her being my mate and if I had done the right thing by pushing her away. I should have been faster, I should have listened to Mirk and the pain in my soul.
That was why I couldn’t tell her to come back with me because whenever I looked
Sara IslamPublished on June 24th, 2021 Sara
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