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“Ah, fuck.” I slammed my face against the pillow after breaking down like that in front of Yael. I was always the composed one between the two of us. Always the one in control, and now after learning of Hyacinth’s possible pregnancy, I’m nothing but a sad lump of mess.

A part of me wanted to tell him the truth. But why bother when he knows it already. Seeing how much he tries to make me happy, I know that he knows that I’m wallowing in self-pity.

Now Yael is cooking something for the two of us. And I can’t seem to help him prepare the food nor even try to help make the boat all of us will use to go back to the Northern Kingdom. I wanted to tell the others to stay. To not make an effort to go back to the Kingdom — that I’m not as strong as I used to be. I feel it in my bones. And it started when I mated with Yael. It’s as if his wolf is harnessing all of my strength, laying low to rest and probably becoming stronger than me.

I’m starting not to care though. Is this what they call a m