60: Negligence

I was a little taken aback by Lily’s question and it had me thinking of so many reasons at once. She noticed my discomfort and scooted closer, maybe to provide comfort.

“I haven’t shifted since that night and I even haven’t thought about shifting before. Maybe my mind has accepted or related my shifting to my trauma and moved it to the back of my mind”

It was the first time I was talking about shifting. I couldn’t even remember the colour of my wolf anymore. It was like she didn’t even exist and Violet has been so patient with me, not even voicing out that she needed to be let free.

“You shouldn’t stay for too long without shifting and it’s been over six months since you came here, that is too long even for your wolf. She may not want you to feel bad so she’ll keep her feeling for you but I’m sure she is restless and not being out for so long is affecting her much harder than she lets on”

Lily was right and it made me feel horrible for neglecting my wolf and not thinking about her.