Let's risk it

It was true that I pretended to be a very happy person in front of everyone in the pack, I smiled trying to make people feel comfortable around me and so on, but whenever I was alone in the room.. I would cry, cry and cry as I wouldn't see anyone to comfort me. After crying out my eyes I would go into the bathroom and sprinkle my face with water. Sometimes I did think I was a curse, a huge curse for every family that I come into. Me thinking of everything that had happened in the past and also currently happening made me cry almost everyday.

Was it how Harolden and Holden usually treat me when I was still in their pack? Was it how Alpha Feston and Luna Esdel would throw me somewhere in the house for several days without offering me anything? Was it everything Lustrow had done to me from the beginning to the end.. I knew if, I knew this world wasn't meant for me... I was just like an error made by the creature. Was I the only one this world who deserved suffering, agony and tr