I took his hand in mine and looked down at him. Don't do this to me-you have to be strong. Don't die on me,is exactly what I've been thinking since Judy the nurse gave me the news. My Father isn't doing so good and the doctors are concerned.
I remember them being concerned once before and he pulled through,maybe he'll pull through again. I don't know what I'll do if he doesn't. I've been hoping and praying for him to wake up-But it seems so far from that now.
"You'll keep me updated?"I glanced in Judy's direction,as she stood by my Dad's bedside checking the monitors.
"Of course. I have your number-I'll call you."Just as I was about to open my mouth she got there before me."I'll call you before Finley,I know."
"Thank you,Judy."I looked down at my Dad again,his hair white in colour now it's been so long since it's had a "Just for Men." in it. Hating the Grey, my Father used to dye it all the time. M
VANESSAI just knew that I couldn't put her off for too long! It was inevitable! I could only go so long without having Natasha visit the Mansion that I live in with my Brute of a Husband. I've been trying to put her off for months by making up silly excuses,that was until I just couldn't any longer. She can be rather insistent at times but I love her in despite of that."Fucking size of this place! I can't believe I'm finally at your house,Ness.I was worried that It might come to me having to sneak in."Natasha chuckled.That's what it might have come to-I honestly wouldn't be surprised if I woke up one morning to find her sitting at the breakfast bar watching Alma cooking her bacon and Eggs. Not surprised at all!!"I know-I'm sorry!You know what it's like,things just get so busy sometimes."I moved my hands up and down in the jacuzzi."You're here now,I want you to enjoyed yourself."
JEREMYI opened my front door,expecting her face to be the first thing that I would see. I was sorely disappointed to not find her ready and waiting by the stairs, nor the kitchen or living room either."Vanessa-Where are you?"I shouted, with agitation in my voice but I didn't get a reply. I took the stairs towards her bedroom and I walked the hallway. When I had left she was almost ready,I can't believe it's 30 minutes later and she's still keeping me waiting.I pushed open her bedroom door."What the hell is taking so long,Vanessa? I'm growing impatient!"I looked around,but she wasn't there. I noticed the dress that she was supposed to be wearing for tonight's dinner was still hanging on the door of her closet.Where the hell is she?Did she change her mind and decide not to come,Just to make me look like an idiot? I pulled my phone from my pocket and dialled her number,but instead of h
I wake with the feeling of dread and sadness. The dread of the day ahead and the sadness of all the hope that I have lost,now that he is gone. He's gone-It feels weird even thinking about it. I'm grieving for him I guess.Perhaps I should have been smart enough to grieve for my Father after the accident instead of all this time later.I shouldn't have had hope!!As I looked at myself in the mirror,I tucked a curly lock of hair behind my ear.Today is the day of the funeral,the day I burry my Father.I couldn't bare the thought of saying goodbye to him..Just like I did my Mother.The door to my bedroom opened slightly more than it already was,and Jeremy's face came into view."We have to um-be at the church in twenty. Are you ready to go?"His voice was low and sweet,not at all what I was used to.I nodded my head at him in
VANESSAIt was New Year's Eve and Jeremy and I were on the drive up to his cabin for a couple of days. At the time it seemed like a good idea,I'm definitely regretting my decision to rope him into coming up here now since things are so awkward between us. Very awkward-Like unbearable silence awkward!! That stupid kiss the night of the funeral,what the hell was I thinking just kissing him like that? Our family Christmas with the Austin's was silence between Jeremy and I for the most part. I think both Ava and Tom figured the reason for my quietness was that I was still grieving for my Father. They would be right in thinking so,at least partly. I'm still finding it hard to come to terms with my Father's passing. Having them
Natasha and I sat in the waiting area of a cute little restaurant,while we waited on our take out food to be brought out to us. It's been the better part of an hour since we left so I'm sure the guys have raided the fully stocked cupboards in hunger."Those animals better not have touch my Chilli Heatwave Doritos!!"I thought,as I looked out the window of the restaurant."If they do there will be hell to pay.""I wish you would have come since it's New Year,we could have started the year together just like we did last year."Natasha pouted,as she looked at Alex's pretty face over the screen.Alex sighed."You know I would have loved that,but you know what my reasons are. It has nothing to do with you,Ness..Just the man you married."Natasha nudged me in the shoulder,pulling my attention from the snowy street and towards the screen."Hmm,I get it. He hit you-you have a right to feel the way you do."
Jeremy drove the car up the snowy driveway and pulled the car up outside the mansion,after the long drive back from the cabin. Our trip was nice,It might have been just what I needed.Not that it made me feel any better about loosing my Father,but it took my mind off life for a little bit.Now back to reality!!The reality of it was that Jeremy and I have been fooling around the entire weekend,and I wondered would things change between us now that we are home. Walking into that house, would we go back to the married couple that don't communicate with each other.Just like we were before...I guess we'll see."Ollie definitely looked like he regretted drinking that last bottle of champagne last night."I chuckled,at Ollie's expense. "Poor thing,he looked so pale this morning."Jeremy glanced in my direction."It's his own fault,We did warn him.Usually it's me that has one too many-Not him" He undid his s
Alex and I were lingerie shopping and spending some quality time together.Look at me,shopping for cute lingerie to impress the man I married.Crazy how things change.Alex wasn't happy about it!Since he knows that our marriage is a fake,I always go to him to talk about Jeremy. I had to tell him what was going on between us,but from his reaction I'm thinking that it was a mistake to say anything at all.Alex shook his head in disagreement."I don't like it.""I know you don't like him and I can't blame you for that."I released a sigh,as I searched the rack of expensive lingerie."I like him,I want to give this a chance.""He's not a good guy,Ness. I think you know that already. This marriage is just a fake-What happens when the year is up?"He asked."Do you divorce and go back to how yo
Jeremy pulled me onto his lap and my legs parted either side of him,there was only a thin towel covering us both.The only thing that was separating him from pressing against me,it was the only thing that was stopping him from slipping inside of me finally.I wanted him!I've wanted him inside of me,I've been dreaming of this moment for far too long. The man makes me feel naughty and I finally want to know what it feels like to have him inside me.The sauna was creating little droplets of sweat all over my body,all over his too. I liked feeling sweaty with him. I liked the way my body felt against his,all wet and slippy. Slippy enough that he could slide it right inside of me now and we would be good to go."Vanessa.."He moaned,and removed the towel from my body and threw it to the floor of the sauna. He set hi