CHAP 28

"Hija? My dear? Are you okay?" I don't know how many times Manang asked it from outside my door.

Even though I don't want to ignore her, I don't have the strength to answer or show my face to anyone. I feel like I'm dirty. Yes, it's my fault that Agustine punished me, it's my fault of what happened to both of us. But I never thought I would get into a situation where I would be attached. I wanted to blame him, but I know I'm at fault too. I did not ask anything about his relationship status.

I laughed and leaned on the edge of my bed. I sat on the floor hugging my own legs. My tears don't stop flowing. I replayed everything over and over in my head. From the time we met until what happened earlier.

I do not know what to think. So messy. I feel like something is missing, something I don't know. There is a part of my chest that hurts and is afraid of the possibility that he really just played with me like Mommy reminded me earlier.

Why did he offer me a relationship if he already has som