Never Again 🌷 “I can't let you go Trust me, I've tried, and I swear I'm Still trying to know How to move on If somebody told me, I still wouldn't know where to go….” -Ali Gator; Can't Let You Go ~•~ X A V I E R• It had been almost an hour when I asked Evelyn to help herself and I haven't seen her since then. 'Why is she still in the room?' I scratched my chin in confusion and then made my way towards my room, passing through the corridor which was illuminated by a warm light. Entering the room at the end of the corridor, casting a brief glance all over my room and the closed bathroom door. I was about to return when I observed a small movement beside my bed which caught my attention. Walking towards the bed, I angled my neck and saw Evelyn on the floor, her back resting against the bed. Furrowing my eyebrows in confusion, I took a few steps towards her, my shoes making a noise against the hard floor but she had not noticed my presence. My eyes zeroed on the photo frame
Never Again 🌷 “Before we set our hearts too much upon anything, let us examine how happy those who already possess it are.” ~•~ E V E L Y N• "You both should go and rest." I said, hugging my arms around my knees, my eyelids lowered to the floor and were growing heavier due to all the tears I had spilled. "We aren't leaving you so that you can cry alone in your room." Kat huffed, crossing her arms in front of her chest. "But you came all the way from NY to California, twenty-two hours flight Kat." I said but the frown on my face said otherwise. When she didn't move and the scowl on her face didn't loosen, I sighed and sat straight. "I-I thought after everything we've been through, it'd be fine now. We could just be colleagues and have a final professional relationship but I was wrong. Seeing him daily just makes everything harder." I said in one breath. "I met my brother Kat, and he doesn't even remember what I did to him, to Xavier, to his child. Then too he accepted me with
Never Again 🌷 “I'm shocked and surprised by people that are shocked and surprised that certain things in life are made up or not as true as you might believe them to be.” ~•~ E V E L Y N• I turned towards Xavier whose eyes were widened like saucers and face contorted as if he had seen a ghost. "What? Cat got your tongue, huh?" Said Mason, taunting Xavier. Before any of them could say something, Marcus said, "Okay. That's enough and Evelyn's another brother," this caught Mason's attention, "You should freshen up and then we can talk." Nodding in his direction, "Yea, sure." Agreed Mason. "Car," Mason called out for Carolina who looked slightly disturbed from this morning's arguments. "Yea?" "Could you please show them a room? Chris and I have to discuss something." Asked Marcus. "Yea, sure." Said Carolina and guided Kat , "This way please." Giving me a last assuring glance, Kat and Mason went with Carolina while Marcus and Chris went into the backyard to discuss something
Never Again 🌷 “It's you, It's always you, If I'm ever gonna fall in love, I know it's gon' be you.” ~•~ E V E L Y N• "She is Xavier Knight's rumoured girlfriend." "What are-" I tried to cut him in between. "Poor guy. I have heard, he is a nice person but you know what, a few years back his wife ran away." Said Sam as sharp pain shooted in my chest at the reminder. "How cruel can someone be, to do this on their wedding night?" "I…. I… didn't…" I stammered, trying to find words to defend my hideous actions. "Hey, Evelyn, are you okay? You look flustered." He said in worry. "Yeah, just in need of some fresh air." I said with a tight smile and darted out of the hall as soon as possible, not caring about the fact that they might not let me in again, or perhaps they would. But, I couldn't care any less. Once I was out of the hall, I rushed towards the elevator at right and pressed the desired location of my suite that I had been sharing with Xavier. After reaching the floor
Never Again 🌷 •X A V I E R• The sunlight entering through the glass windows ruined my sleep. Groaning, I rolled over in my sleep and suddenly, I felt a feminine body beneath me. Don't be naked. Don't be naked. Please don't be naked. I cursed when our bare bodies brushed slightly. Scooting away from the person, I hesitantly opened my eyes and when my eyes landed on the face of that woman, all the oxygen got knocked out of my lungs. I felt my throat dry at her sight, my gaze slowly traveled down her flawless skin, the soft curves of her waist and then her long legs. I saw Evelyn's seductive body lying on my bed in my shirt,a muscle in my heart clenched. That's how I wanted to see her, in my room, wearing my shirt, spending the night in my arms. "Fuck." I spoke, springing to the sitting position. My voice must have woken her up because the next moment, her eyes opened and her face flushed because of our bare state. "I-I…" she tried speaking and rose to a sitting position, clutchi
Never Again 🌷 •E V E L Y N• |A T N I G H T| I groaned as the pain in my abdomen increased, rolling over my side to be stopped by something wrapped around my waist. I frowned and slowly peeled my eyes open. The room was still covered in dark so I extended my hand and switched on the lamp. Removing the sheets off of me, I froze as the sensation of the thing wrapped around my waist came back and also the wind hit my bare skin with full force. I looked down at my waist and saw an arm wrapped around it. My eyes widened, gulping as my gaze followed the arm to the hand and to the shoulder attached to it and then the owner of the shoulder. It was none other than Xavier, he slept like a baby with a beautiful smile on his face. His hair fell over his forehead making him look perfect even in his sleep. I covered my mouth to stop myself from screaming on the sudden realisation. What have I done? Tears pooled in my eyes as I saw my naked self and didn't even think about removing the other
“If I've been on your mind, you hang on every word I say, lose yourself in time, at the mention of my name. Will I ever know how it feels to hold you close? And have you tell me whichever road I choose, you'll go?"-Adele|Five Years Ago|•E V E L Y N•My mind was so much like the ocean, watching for the incoming ship, calm on the surface with so many deep under currents, all of them with their own purpose. Being a 'watcher' was the perfect job for a daydreamer like me and if I must suffer cold feet and numb fingers through the winter months, it was a price worth paying.They thought I was a fool to wait like I do every chance I get: eyes set to the horizon, arms resting on the cold metal rail. But the way I saw it they were missing the greatest mysteries of life as they chase the mundane and trip over the details of existence. Waiting here gave me time to let my
Never Again 🌷 “I long for you, just a touch of your hand. You don't leave my mind. Lonely days I'm feeling like a fool for dreaming. As I wander down the avenue so confused, guess I'll try and force a smile.” -Sam Smith •E V E L Y N• Fear was natural and there to keep you alive and happy, yet where it had been weaponized and fashioned into a cage, one was honoured bound to break free. When I was feeling triggered by the world and everyone it was behind fifty feet of glass. Loving bonds became inaccessible. In this mode I had to take great care not to damage bonds of love, the relationships and people who were everything to my heart and soul. For in time the glass disappeared and my love returned. I wish I could stop the triggering, but if I felt unprotected or left to fend for myself it returned - it was survival mode, cold and indifferent. Yet even in those times I was cognisant of my morality. I could still make good choices. I could still imagine what the better version of me