…Mekayla POV…
I am startled awake by a loud thud at the door, followed by the yanking of the chains. I hear the chain being dropped to the floor, not being locked again as always before; I can hear the district sound of something being dragged along the floor.
I am struck with fear; what has he come back for so early again tonight.
As he turns the corner, I am horrified by the sight of what he has been dragging behind him.
"Xavien! No! What have you done to him?"
"Relax, he is still alive."
"What did you do to him?"
"I had to knock his snooping ass out. What a lovely reunion this is going to be."
"I told you he would find me."
"Yes, he did but without back up. Both of you are stuck here now."
"Someone will find us."
"It is highly unlikely to happen."
"Just let us go."
I hear him rumble with a burst of godawful laughter from deep within his chest, "I can't do that. This has just b
…Mekayla POV…God no!What do I do?That is a stupid question.Get your shit off the floor, Mekayla, and save your fiancé."Hey fuck head," I call after Raymond. "I suggest you drop that gun.""God, if this were not so such a fucked up mess, I would say that is hot.""You a sick fuck.""What happened to monster?""Just drop the damn gun.""Baby, by the time you get that safety off, I would have blown his brains all over the pole."Fuck. I knew I forgot something."Even before you squeeze that trigger, Raymond, your ass will be on the floor.""Your fiance knows better than to fuck with a man that has a gun in his face. Pity I have to ruin such a pretty face."Fuck. I need to get this safety off and that gun out of Xavien's face. What do I do? Think Mekayla think.A distraction.What?"Why don't you just drop that gun, and we can go inside the house."God, I can't
…Mekayla POV…Every day I see Xavien aimlessly wandering around the pool, he is trying, but he is not really there.Today has been one of the particularly hard days. I did not see him the entire day. As the sunsets, he slowly makes his way back in and sits down at the table."Can I dish you something up to eat?""No, I am not hungry. I think I am going to head to bed."I know it is only six in the afternoon, but I gently kiss him on the forehead, and he disappears again off to the room.I decide to phone his brother, Brendan.""Hey, Mekayla. How is he?""He spent most of the day by himself around the property. He has gone to bed now.""Ask him to phone me. He probably won't, but I want him to know I am here for him.""What has happened with Raymond?""They won't be pressing any charges. It was self-defense.""Will he have to give a report or anything? I don't think he will survive
…Xavien POV…I was always going to do anything for Mekayla.One thing I never thought that I would do, though, and which no man would ever do, is taking a life.It was easier said than done. Perhaps not true completely; at the time, it was easy to pull that trigger. But what happened afterward has not been easy at all.This seems like it happened yesterday; in fact, it did, well, four weeks ago now, but I can still feel it. Yes, being a real cowboy, you are going to shoot the odd coyote now and again. But that is a coyote.Now it should feel the same, but I can remember as if I am doing it right now.That feeling as you gently pull the trigger, a slight squeeze, the mere flick of a finger. That is the start that sets it in motion. Once you lay that index finger against that tiny pin, you have made a decision that you cannot take back.Next comes that feeling as you feel the bullet, now even if that is possible, but you f
…Xavien POV… It has been another week that has passed in misery. Being in my company is absolutely unbearable, not only for me but for Mekayla as well. I have really not been the best person to be around these days. I have for weeks now sat here and slowly losing my mind, but what I have failed to notice all this time is that I am losing Mekayla as well. She has grown distant from me; at first, I thought it is because she wanted to give me space. But when she stopped wanting to be around me to make sure that I am okay, then I started to notice that she is pushing herself away. This morning she came to me with tears in her eyes, begging me to please talk to her, but when I said that there is nothing to talk about, then she hit me with these very words. "I am moving out today.' Now, my first reaction was…nothing. I thought that she is running away from her problems like she always does. But then it came to me…I am her problem. She is running awa
…Mekayla POV…Xavien does not know where I am.He has tried phoning me for several days now. I just cannot stand to take him killing himself anymore. He is half of the man that he used to be before. I don't know how to get through to him. I am hoping, in my own cruel little way, that this separation shall be what our relationship needs.I am not ready to give up on the man I love.I just need him to find himself.Now I don't know how hard he is looking for me; I am guess real damn hard, and what I am also guessing is that he is turning the city upside down. Well, I am not in the city; I am, in fact, in the cabin.Now I have the desire to phone him and tell him, but I need him to find himself in order to find us.But what else needs to be finding is me going into town. I am so petrified of how these people will judge me. But do I truly care? There is nothing that Xavien and I did wrong; the only thing we ever did differently was being
…Mekayla POV…It's been a week since I left the city. Xavien has not to stop phoning for one second. I know that he is going off his mind by now. But I need him to understand that I am doing this for us. He needs to find himself, and it should be all by himself. I, too, need to clear my head. We cannot work if we are broken. Yes, I know that we should be broken together and heal each other. But I think that I am just a distraction from what he really needs to be doing at this moment.This morning I came up with a better solution for my living arrangements. It's bold and definitely crazy, I might even regret it, but I don't care; it really gets cold at night in the cabin. I need to think of my baby, and this is not the place to think of raising himSo I pick up my phone and dial his number."Billy.""Hey, Mekayla.""How have you been?""I am great, thanks."Then I gather all my nerves together and chuck them away ask I set out to
…Mekayla POV…When I wake up, I am in Xavien's bed. I was crying so much last night that Billy eventually brought me here. Now, if he thought that was going to make me feel better, he was seriously mistaken for just smelling Xavien's cologne made me cry all over again.So I dress, and I make my way downstairs, but as I get there, Billy and Molly are not there. I take a fresh cup of coffee from the pot and sit down at the table.As I am sitting by myself, I start thinking, "What am I going to do today." I chuckle at myself as I notice that I am now starting to talk to myself. I am now officially going crazy. "You are losing all your marbles, Mekayla. But now, seriously, what the hell am I going to do today?""You can start with saying hello, Mekayla."I am startled at a voice of a man that is standing behind me. I am shit scared to turn my face because I know exactly who it is."Princess, are you not going to say hello?"I slowly spin
…Mekayla POV…So we are back in town.After much discussing and pulling straws, Xavien won, and we will be moving back to this little town, leaving the city behind.We do not see it as being a failure; it taught us the finer things in life are not always the best to have.It is early morning; Xavien did his awful naked walk to go fetch the paper while I am having the breakfast that Billy was so kind to have made.This morning we are going to look at another ranch nearby. Xavien says that there is no way that he will kick Billy out.This is what makes me love this man so much.Now not only has Billy has terrible taste in clothes, but he also cannot cook either. I can knock the cat sitting at the door completely unconscious with this thing. Let me not even start with this egg, if you can even call it that. This is the worst breakfast I have ever had in my life."I don't think you can stab that thing anymore de