Sana's POV
I just look at him but don't say anything. I'm shocked, stunned and surprised? Why did he lie to me? Was it necessary? I focus on my breakfast but I can hardly eat. His actions are making me crazy about us.
"Eat properly," he says while chewing. "You're starving from last night". I don't reply and try to eat. That's why I don't think much about his closeness with Bella. Because the way he cares for me can't be compared with anyone. I console myself every time with this.
We finish our breakfast and leave for the office.
Sid is taking a long time to have a conversation with Roshan. So I decided to drive.
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Sana's POV "Tell me, Sana. Do you love him?" Lopa asks again. "I don't know," I reply. I'm not in a state of figuring out my feelings for him. "Why do you mean? You don't know?" Lopa raises her eyebrows. "I actually don't know. I just know that I feel for him the way no one can feel. If it's love, it can be," I sigh. "Uh.. You're cracking riddles now," she says. "I don't wanna think about it now," I say. "Fine. I'm not forcing you. But Sana..," she holds my shoulder. "Be careful. I hope you don't get late while finding out your feelings for him," she tells me. I just nod. Lopa made me think about the fact. But Am I ready to think about it now?Sid's POVI'm trying to focus on the presentation for the last one hour but I can't. Thoughts of Bella have taken over my mind. I keep recalling the moment when she was in my arms. What the heck is she doing to me? I guess I
Sana's POVSid told me he will go to Lydia's place this weekend but he didn't ask me to go with him. I am preparing dinner while thinking about all this. He doesn't need to take me everywhere he goes. I'm not his bodyguard at least. I tell myself. And if I start having a problem with everything he does, he'll feel suffocated. I don't want him to feel that way. "Salad?" he says annoyingly, standing next to the counter. I come out of my thoughts and give him a blank look. "Don't make faces. You are not doing workouts for a few months. You should go on a diet," I tell him. I'm not like others who keep feeding their men and tell him that they are attractive however they are. I don't want him getting unfit. "Have I ever denied you?" he giggles. After a long time, we're chatting together in the kitchen. I miss our old days in college when we used to have a lot of fun together while cooking, washing clothes and dishes. Things chang
Sid's POVI witness fear in her eyes. She is still looking at Nev with her frozen eyes. "What's happening here?" she asks in shock. I don't know how I'm gonna answer her but I didn't want her to see this. "That's none of your business, Bella," Sana shrugs. "It is. What are you guys doing? Who is he?" she raises her voice. Nev attempts to answer but I glare at him to keep his mouth shut. "Bella. I'll explain that later," I say while grabbing her shoulders. "Please go now" "But I wanna know. What were you doing?" she asks me in a firm tone. I can realise the nervousness in her voice and the way she is questioning me with full rights. "Listen," Sana comes and grabs her arm. "Be in your limits. You are no one to ask for his explanation. Do you get it?" Sana shrugs angrily, the way she does every time to support me. "But...but," she stammers looking at me. "It's not good. Why are you guys torturing him?"I am clueles
Sid's POVI break the kiss and discover her blushing. Her cheeks turn pink, she looks no less than a barbie doll right now. And I can stare at her for hours like this. No girl had ever blushed for me, nor did I make them blush. My heart sinks as I remember Sana. I just realised what I've done. I look at Bella again. She is smiling while looking at me. Am I really doing it? Am I really letting her come close to me? Well, I actually had done that. And I never regretted doing something. "It was awesome," I tell her. "That was....that was my first kiss," she says. Is she kidding me? Was that her first kiss? I felt lucky for some reason. She can't see my eyes because of her shyness. A smile appears on my face while looking at her. I don't know whether it is a universal truth or not but guys always feel a kind of weakness towards a shy girl, who will be shy for him only. I've never seen any girl being shy with me. That's fucking driving me crazy.
Sid's POVThe next morning, I visit mom so that she doesn't keep blabbing all week. "So did you think about it?" Samantha snaps as I take a sip of my coffee. "About what?" I ask her, raising my eyebrows. "Come on Sid. You've got one whole month to think about it," she says while drinking her coffee.I remembered the last time I visited here when mom called me. I didn't pay much attention to her stupid idea of getting married. Yes, she asked me to get married, a fucking real marriage, the thing which I hate the most on the earth. "It was stupid, Sam," I shrugged. "It wasn't stupid at all," I hear mom's voice and look up. She walks toward me while completing her statement. "That's the only way to get your shares, Sid. I know your father. He is stubborn, very very stubborn. If he had placed a condition, he would never step back" "So what do you want? Make me do something that I hate?" I am
Sana's POVI return to my desk and breathe heavily. Again, I could feel the same taste on his lips that I had last night. He was with Bella last night too and also now. Fuck! You're fucking crazy, Sana! I scold myself. I ignore my instincts again, again I try to prove myself wrong, again I try to run away from the truth that I'm losing him. Yes. I know I'm losing him but I don't wanna accept that. A teardrop falls from my eye.Sid's POVI'm trying to focus on my work for an hour but I can't. Sana's face is flashing on my mind continuously. Unknown guilt takes over my mind and soul. Am I doing wrong to her? Am I gonna hurt her? Am I gonna break my promise to be with her always? But I can be with her forever. However, will she be ready for this? I can not think of anything right now.I just know that I can't lose him. As I always said to myself "I don't know what she is to me but she is everything to me.******flashback*******It
Sid's POVShe looks at me and hesitates to say anything. I find her face turning red as I hold her hand. I park the car aside and look at her. "Listen. Let me be the way I am. You won't understand why I have become like that," I sigh. "You can.. You can tell me," she stammers. She looks at me intensely and we have deep eye contact. "Actually, I....," I try to tell her about me, everything about me but something stops me. "Nothing," I drive my eyes away. "You don't wanna tell me? But I wanna know everything about the person I love," she urges. Her face has the curiosity to know about me. But I don't find the comfort to tell her. I don't prefer it. "There's nothing special about me, Bella. And my past life isn't very important to me," I tell her as I start the car again. I don't look at her, nor does she reply to me again. But I know she still has the urge in her but she is nervous to force me to say all t
Sid's POVWhy isn't she picking up my calls? She never does this. I need to have a chat with her about it. Meanwhile, Bella places her hand on my shoulder. "Are you okay?" she asks me as I turn to her. "Yeah. I am," I say, putting the phone in my pocket. "Is there anything that I can help you with?" "You can't," I tell her the truth. She can't help me the way Sana does. I find disappointment on her face. "Get inside. We need to go"I drive towards the office. Bella seems to be a little upset with my words. I should try to divert her mind at least. "Are you coming to the business party tonight?" I ask her. "Me? Can I come?" she exclaims. "Why not? Aren't you a part of the company?" "Yes. But... I have never attended such kind of parties" "You need to start from somewhere, no?" I say. "Yes. And what should I wear?" she snaps.