CHAPTER 11

Laura Anthony

When Simon walked into my apartment, I could never have imagined that he was in love with me. I asked for forgiveness because deep down I knew I was to blame for years of separation. I ignored him all that time. I tried to blame everyone for what had happened to me, for being alone and helpless in that man's hands, but deep down I knew that no one was to blame for anything. I was just running away from reality. It was easier to believe that everything would have been different if Simon hadn't left, if my parents hadn't died. But what control over life do we have? How can we predict what will happen in the future?

All that feeling that had been stored inside of me exploded the moment Simon placed me in his lap. I loved him and I wanted him to know that, so I declared myself. Nothing else mattered. If he said he didn't love me I would suffer a lot, but at least I would know. Living in uncertainty, thinking what it would be like if I had the courage to declare myself, woul