Chapter 37

As I have experience growing up in foster system ,I am fully aware pf the risks of having a child with no finance or care to raise it and while my sister and I had been lucky to have decent parents ,we still learned to protect ourselves ,But clearly I have forgotten all about it. A few days in his presence and I am losing myself, losing my independence and my pride. He’s bringing the woman I am deep inside to the surface. And I don’t want to deny who I am. I don’t want shame to prevent me from being myself. But, here I am, facing the very real possibility that I might have conceived a child by my captor already, and that is not a part of my life plan right now.

Eventually I will want children .But not a chance I am going to let him taint my life with him being the father ,either way I have to find a way to escape . No way, would his staff and his brothers and the rest of his team leave him without, at least, some way to get off this place. If there is a way off, then I am going to fi