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— Z A H I R —

. . .

Now she is trying her best to get away from me. Or does she enjoy tormenting me? — To whom should I give special attention among these two? Which reason is better to accept?

To be honest, I do not want to pay any attention to assumptions in the first place. It is more cruel.

It would not hurt my heart at all to look at the other assumption — the second one. I am ready if she is doing all this to torment me because all this has nothing to do with her feelings, right?

She can care about me yet do this all and I will take it all happily. But if she is really willing to go away, it is going to kill me while I am still alive.

Hoor and I have gotten closer and I like us together, to be honest. Whatever days we have left, can't we both spend them well and happily?

But Hoor has to fight with me every time.

I run my fingers through my hair as I get up and sit upright on the bed. She is still in the living room and I do not know what is so important left that needs her at