"Faye!" I looked at Charrieze who called me. Tinaas ko ang dalawang kilay. "Can you do Lerry's hom--" I cut her off.
"Sorry, I-I can't. May ginagawa pa kase ako. I'm busy. Sorry ulit." Umalis ako sa harap niya. I've been rejecting their favor these days.
Wala talaga akong ginagawa at gagawin. I need to rest. I need to take my time to reflect on what's happening. I need to have me time. This time, I need to choose myself, so I can improve and be myself again.
It was the usual day at school. Vacant namin ngayon. Gusto ko sana maglibot sa school para makapag-isip isip, kaso baka wala rin akong mapuntahan.
Sumandal ako sa upuan ko. I observe my classmates. They were having fun with their friends. Others are playing mobile games, talking w
Tinitigan ko ang likod niyang naglalakad palayo sa akin. Nobody looked at me or even talked about me after that.It's like I'm invisible.I wiped my tears that fell on my cheeks. After all of my thoughts, doubts, and anxiety to come here, this is what I get. Maybe I don't really belong here, huh? This is not my world. I don't really exist here, so why bother come here always? Is it because of the feeling? The first friends I have? The comfort? The rest? My second home?While walking to the gate, I think of the reasons why and what's happening. It's either he's mad at me that's why he's acting like that or something happened to him while I'm away.I blowed my cheeks and groaned out of frustration. I don't know what to do. I don't know where to go.
I can't contain my excitement when I saw their van again. Lumingon ako sakanila, they're happily talking. Nauuna ako dahil hindi ko rin alam kung bakit, masiyado ata talaga akong excited. Huminto ako sa tapat ng van habang inaantay silang lumapit.Tinignan nila ako nang nakangisi at nakakunot ang noo. Why? Did I do something wrong?"How did you know this is our van?" Drake asked. Hindi agad ako nakasagot. Bukod sa hindi ko alam paano mag-explain, Drake's intimidating."I-I saw you guys used this three times. Kaya inisip ko na van niyo," I explained. Jeez. Dapat pala mag-iisip na ako ng sandamakmak na paliwanag at kasinungalingan.They looked convinced kaya pumasok na kami. As usual, Drake's driving, Jeruza's at the passenger seat, Thy and Leigh are on my side at the back.We drove to Nukefield. Marami na ang tao ro'n. Pumasok na agad kami at inayos na nila ang mga gamit. I was wa
Unti-unti kong minulat ang mata ko. The white room of the hospital welcomed me. Naramdaman ko rin na may benda ako sa ulo at may nakatusok sa kamay ko.Dahan-dahan akong umupo. Tinignan ko ang k'warto, no one is around. Una kong hinanap si Chryszyler pero wala siya. Napalobo ako sa pisngi ko. Kahit nasa hospital na ako, wala pa rin nandiyan para sa akin. I scoff. Why am I disappointed?Bumukas ang pinto at napalingon agad ako. Hindi ko alam kung bakit ako nalungkot nang makita na nurse lang 'yon. It's really a bad thing when you expect, huh? It will just lead to disappointment. You're lucky enough if it turned out what you want or expected."Is your head still hurting?" No, but my heart is. Tumango na lang ako sakaniya. She checked on me, run a test at kung ano ano pa. "Is your arm num
Nag-away saglit sina Tita Marife at Chryszyler dahil sa inasal nito. It's really weird to witness it all. Considering that I saw Chryszyler broke down when..."A-Ayos lang po talaga ako. 'Wag niyo na po siya pilitin kung ayaw," I said. They stopped midway when I interrupted them. Chryszyler pursed his lips. Kanina pa niya pinipigilan ang sarili na sumagot pero pinipilit talaga siya ni Tita Marife.He really don't want me around to the point that he really fight with his mom. I get it. Let's just stop pushing ourselves into people who doesn't want us."Mag-isa ka lang dito. Sino mag-aasikaso sa 'yo?" nag-aalala niyang tanong."Ayos lang po talaga. Ako lang naman po talaga nag-aalaga sa sarili ko. Kase po..." wala na magulang ko. Nagtal
I woke up, still feeling dizzy. I looked around and I'm still at the Hospital. My eyes automatically looked for my friends. Wala sila..."Is that a dream?" I whispered to myself. Nakita kong may nakakabit ng oxygen mask sa akin. I didn't have it before. Did something happened?Nakarinig ako ng ingay na papalapit. Biglang bumukas ang pinto at pumasok isa isa ang mga kaibigan ko. May mga dala silang paperbag at nagkwekwentuhan."Faye! Gising ka na!" Jeruza came to me. Siya lang ang walang hawak na paperbag. Yayakapin na niya sana ako pero nakita ang itsura kong may oxygen mask, may benda sa ulo, at 'yong nakakabit sa kamay ko.Dahan dahan akong umupo kaya inalalayan niya agad ako. Inabutan ni Drake si Jeruza ng dalawang paperbag bago um
When the three arrived we were quiet, well, I'm quiet the whole day. Thy knows why, but I'm thankful he didn't push to know what is our connection."Faye, alis na kami. Bukas ulit!" Jeruza tried to be energetic. She noticed my sudden silence, all of them did. Siguro ayaw muna nila ako tanungin.I smiled, kahit hindi nila nakikita dahil sa oxygen mask ko. Nakita naman nila ang mata ko, kaya para kahit papaano, bago sila umalis hindi ako nakasimangot. "Ingat. Thank you for today."They were hesitating to leave me because I'm not in myself. I convinced them that I'll be okay, ayaw ko na sila pag-alalahanin, ayaw ko na rin sila magstay pa dahil babalik na ako mamaya.They usually go home at 10 PM, pero they extended their time, kaya 11 PM
"Faye!" I turned around to face Thy when he called me. Bigla na lang may panyo na napunta sa mukha ko. Kinuha ko 'yon at tinignan nang masama si Thy. Tumawa siya. This guy!Andito kami ngayon sa studio, they're preparing for another gig. Months passed and I think the situation changed. Is it because of the fashion show gig? That I need to be with Chryszyler that time?These past months I focused myself to helping Aling Melinda at the karinderya, having fun with Universe and help them with their gigs and all.Hindi na rin naman kami nagkikita ni Chryszyler simula no'ng pumunta sila ng parents niya. We didn't really talk that much. Why would we? As far as I know, he doesn't remember me."Faye, tulala ka na naman!" sabi ni Jeruza. "Hayaan mo 'yon, basta mahal ka namin!" dugtong pa niya.Natawa ako at inakbayan si Jeruza. Katatapos lang nila mag practice. Balak nila kumain sa labas o
"Okay, next song." They're practicing their first gig with Chryszyler. Jeruza is always by my side kaya hindi ko na rin napapansin at nag overthink sa presence ni Chryszyler.Nanghingi ng break si Thy kaya tumigil muna sila. Nagulat ako dahil inakbayan niya agad ako at hinila palabas ng studio."Ano meron?" I asked. Dire-diretso ang lakad namin hangga't sa makapunta kami sa tindahan kung saan kami bumibili ng tubig."Ate, anim na tubig po." Hindi niya pinansin ang tanong ko at bumili lang ng tubig. Mukhang nagpasama lang naman siya kaya hindi na ako nagtanong ulit.We're walking back to the studio while carrying six bottles of water. Siya lang pala 'yong may bitbit."Ang tahimik mo,"