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[88] Just Bury Me Six Feet Under Because I Cannot Process These Feelings And I Don't Want To
Helen was sobbing in front of me and I was trying my hardest not to laugh.
When she had heard that I was sent to the hospital, she immediately thought it was her fault. Which is ridiculous because Helen is an actual angel? It was not her fault, she couldn’t have known. Plus, I didn’t once blame her for what happened. I never even thought about how she was to blame. Still, I’m sure my neighbor was feeling guilty over something she couldn’t possibly control.
Rubbing her back, I lean my head against her shoulder.
“It’s not your fault, Helen,” I tell her repeatedly until she gets it stuck inside her skull. “You know how my life was back then, you couldn’t have known that I sometimes, freak out like that.”
Helen repl
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