chapter forty-two

[ IN WHICH SHE IS NOT HERSELF ]

Something has come over me.

Something dark.

Something evil.

I am not myself.

But I can't stop what I have already started.

The minute I left Lucian City, something in me changed. Something uncontrollable bloomed. Something unrecognizable germinated. Maybe that was why the guards didn’t come after me when I declined their offer to be an escort. But they could also have been commanded by their King to stay back. So they all watched me walk out. It was almost like they were watching me do their bidding. It felt like Lucian City had turned me all around to be who they wanted me to be— to be Faye, their Queen only. But then again, it could have been the Lycan King who had me wrapped around his ringed finger all this time. He did prove that after giving me an urge to release, and then, telling me to hold on.

That was cruel.

But it only made me want to act cruel.

It has nearly been an hour since I left Lucian City, the land of the werewolves. And I haven't