Cutter"You do?" I can't believe what I'm hearing. It was the absolute last thing I expected. "Yeah." She grins. "I haven't let myself feel this way in a long time, but with you, it's natural."That's exactly how it feels for me too. Completely natural.I go to wrap my arms around her, but she shrinks back. "If you've been honest with me, I need to be honest with you.""You don't have to tell me anything," I assure her. "Me confiding in you was something I needed to do."She reaches over, grabbing my beer, taking a drink of it. "I need to confide in you, too.""Then please, I'm here to listen to you. I'm here to help you through anything. I won't judge."Relief flashes in her hazel eyes. "Thank you.""No need to thank me."She sits back against the outdoor fabric, looking like the life has completely deflated from her body. "This is so hard." Her voice shakes. "I've never told anyone about this. Since I've always lived in Paradise Lost, everyone knows. The only
Rowan"This is so cute!"I love the downtown look of Laurel Springs. We're in Cutter's truck driving to The Café, where we're having breakfast with his family. I'm doing my best to not be sad because I have to leave tonight, but I'm thankful for the time we've gotten to spend together."Yeah, it is. You know, it's funny. I've spent most of my life wondering why I can't get out of this town, but now that I've been to Paradise Lost and Tuscaloosa, I realize how much I love it here. We have a hometown vibe not many get to have."I could see myself living here. I don't say the words out loud, but I could. The feel of the place is so happy. There aren't bad memories everywhere I turn. There's just a chance to make new ones. He turns on his blinker, groaning. "Looks like everybody and their mama's here today.""What do you mean?" But then I see it, a huge row of cars, trucks, and a couple of Jeeps."Mom must have invited the entire LSERT to eat this morning. Don't touch that d
Cutter"Is this the for-sure schedule?" I ask my supervisor as I take a look at what our next two weeks look like on the rotation."Yeah, I gave you four days off in a row after being down at Paradise Lost. I figured you could use it.""Thanks." I grin at him, already pulling my phone out of my pocket.Four days off in a row? That means I can head down there if I want to and spend some more time with Rowan. She may not be off, but at least I can be there when she is, and we can continue to get to know one another better. C: Guess what? I got the lucky shift and I'm off four days in a row after today. I can leave around eight tonight, if you're willing to put me up?It doesn't even take two minutes for her to answer.R: OMG! YES! Come down here. I get off work at six, so that's perfect. I can't wait to see you, even though it's only been two days.C: Same, I was missing you in my bed more than I wanted to admit.R: We're about to go on a run, but I'll see you when you
RowanThe knock on my door causes me to shriek in excitement. I know it's Cutter, and even though it's only been a few days, I've missed him. I run so fast I slide on the hardwood, hitting the door in the front foyer. "Ouch.""Ro, are you okay?"I'm holding my forehead as I swing it open, and let him in. "Fine, I was too excited and skid."He sweeps me up in his arms, and I'm back where I've wanted to be since I left Laurel Springs. "Missed you." He runs his nose along my jawline."Missed you, too."This time I release him from my grip, letting him come completely into the living room. "Four days, huh?""Four days," he confirms, excitement in his eyes.But I can see it, the weariness marked by dark circles. "How long have you been awake?"He glances at his watch. "Going on twenty hours.""As excited as I am that you're here, I really think you should get some sleep. It won't do either of us any good if you're dead on your feet.""But you work tomorrow," he argues.
CutterGoing to the beach is something different for me. We went sometimes when I was little, but it was hard with Mom always working at The Café. I, of course, did the whole Spring Break experience, but it's not the same as coming with Rowan."We'll park in the EMT lot." She winks as she turns her car in, displaying her badge. "It's almost ten bucks an hour to park in the public lots. Everybody who works here does it.""Little rule breaker," I joke as she parks in one of the back spaces. "Sometimes rules are meant to be broken."This is a side of her I like. One where she's not so completely worried about what other people think of her. It's cute and sexy. We get out, grabbing our stuff out of the trunk. "How long has it been since you've been to the beach to have fun?" she asks as we walk across the street onto the public part of the sand."Not since you swallowed for me there a few days ago," I laugh as her eyes grow big and she busts out laughing."Cutter!""Kid
RowanIt's been a long, but good day when Cutter and I decide it's time to leave. My face is slightly tight, meaning I'm probably sunburned. I hope not badly considering we applied sunscreen every few hours. As we walk back across the street and into the parking lot, he holds my hand, swinging our entwined fingers between us. It's one of the cutest things he's ever done. We're approaching where I parked, so I reluctantly let go.Reaching into my beach bag to fish out my keys, I point over to where my car is parked, only to let an oath out of my mouth. "Fuck me.""Excuse me?""Not what I meant to say. It's just…" There's a man leaning beside my car. He's one I avoid at all costs, but every once in a while he'll corner me, want to talk to me in a public setting where he knows I won't make a scene. "I don't want to see him right now.""Who is he?" Cutter asks.The man standing beside my car hears him, and together the two of us answer, our voices raising to be the one he
RowanCutter is gone, and I'm alone, but I have a plan today. I haven't been over to my parents' for Sunday dinner since we lost Etta. All the things we used to do had tarnished, no longer shining for any of us. Looking at the empty spot where her seat sat was more painful than any of us had ever imagined.Getting out of my car, I take a deep breath when I realize I'm the last one to show up. Truth be told, even though I called my mom and told her I'd be coming, I don't think any of them truly thought I'd be here. But it's imperative I be here today, I have to explain to them what's going to happen. I don't necessarily need their blessing, but I want it. I desperately need them to understand what I've been going through, and the only way to do that is to tell them. After talking all of these things out with Cutter, I now know how badly I've hurt myself by not speaking about Etta earlier. Weirdly I'd decided by not acknowledging how much losing her affected my life, I was doing bett
CutterI'm off work early today, and I find myself driving by The Café. Mom's car is parked in its normal spot, and Dad's truck is parked next to hers. Since they're both here, I decide to stop. I've never been the type of person to need approval from my parents. That's more up Ransom's alley, but again I made them live with me dropping out of school and losing my scholarship. I never told them exactly what happened either, always too embarrassed to put a voice to the situation. Today though, I decide if I'm going to start a new life with Rowan, I need to have a clean slate, including with my parents. When I walk in, there aren't many people inside, the lunch rush is long past, and that's probably why Dad's decided to come visit. Mom usually uses the downtime to make orders and do anything else that doesn't get completed in the morning.Because I know my parents, I make sure and knock loudly on her office door. I don't just barge in. Been there, done that, and have the therap