Chapter 77

Tucker

I don't do well with days off, not anymore. They used to be filled doing mundane shit with Karsyn – her teaching me how to bake a cake, going with her to pick out a dress for a work event she had to attend, helping her wash her car. Back then I didn't realize how much I looked forward to the mundane shit. I believe I even grumbled a time or two. Funny how you don't miss what you had until it's gone.

Today I would love to bake a cake with her, help her wash her car, just have her here. The loneliness is the worst. Some days it eats at me, other days I don't mind it much. Today, it threatens to drive me out of my fucking mind.

Major lays on the couch with me, his head resting on my thigh. He looks up at me, a little whine escaping. He misses her too, the hole her being gone has left in our lives is big. I'm not sure I can take my company anymore, and I'm almost sure he's sick of me too.

"I know, we need to go and do something."

Even in the middle of my pity party, I kno