The Good News
I and my husband spent the next day at the hotel. I don't know why I feel so lazy these days. He asked me to go out for lunch, but I just wanted to stay on bed and do nothing. He also sleeps a lot these days. I guess we are already getting old.
We went home later that afternoon. We headed straight to our room and watched a movie. This is the best weekend I had so far with my husband. I'm not into shopping and I am not outgoing. Staying at home is basically my weekend routine and it doesn't have to change now that I'm married. I just need to do it with my husband this time which makes staying at home more enjoyable.
Monday came by and we had to go back to our work. Even though I didn't want to get up, I didn't have a choice.
"Are you okay? You look pale." Geoff said looking worried.
"I'm okay. Maybe I will get a flu but don't worry. I'm strong and I can take care of myself." I answered.
"Why did you marry me if
Geoff was quiet after I said I was pregnant which makes me feel worse. I hang up and cried continuously. This was not the reaction I was expecting from him. Am I expecting too much? Is it the effect of being pregnant? I know we didn't plan to have a baby right after our wedding, actually, we never talked about it. I guess we were so impulsive with our decisions and we were not prepared for the consequences. In my case, I want to have a baby because I'm not getting any younger, but I haven't asked for his thoughts about it.I cried for I don't know how long. I didn't even have dinner. I heard a knock on the door which I'm sure was from Nancy. Maybe she thought I was sleeping so she didn't disturb me anymore.I don't know what time I was able to sleep. When I woke up the next day, I felt sadder to find out that Geoff didn't come home. I checked the time. It was already 5:30 in the morning. I feel nauseated and dizzy when I tried to get up, so I decided to send a message
The next day, Geoff and I went to Pines Advertising together. We arrived at the office early and as I expected, all eyes were on us. Initially, I planned to resign from the company but I realized it is not good for me to leave the company while we are on an important project, so I would ask Mr. Smith for an indefinite leave and would promise him that I will be available when I am needed. It would also be difficult to explain that I am pregnant to everyone when they never knew that I got married so we decided to announce our wedding in the company. For me, I don't mind not telling others about me and Geoff since I don't really care about what other people say and think about me but I will have my baby soon, I don't want other people to gossip about my baby even he or she is not yet born.Mr. Smith was pleased to see Geoff in his office. He was at first hesitant to accept my letter for taking a leave but when Geoff explained to him that I would be willing to help whenever I am
"This is Erica. You've been calling Geoff, right? He can't answer because he is with me."Are they really together? Is Geoff been lying to me the whole time? I try to keep myself calm. I know pregnant women should never be stressed. I should think more of the child in me.I called Nancy to distract myself from thinking negatively. I asked her to accompany me outside. I want to eat something delicious. Actually, I have been craving for cakes since morning. I want to eat strawberry cake. I wanted to ask Geoff to buy a slice for me this morning, but I didn't want to bother him. Nancy brought me to a famous cake shop downtown. I wanted to buy only a slice of it at first but since the strawberries on top of the cake look very delicious, I couldn't help but to be greedy and want for more. The cake looks very beautiful that I decided to just eat it at home.After visiting the cake shop, I asked Nancy if we can watch a movie."Are you sure you are not yet tired m
My world seems to crush when I got that message. I am not the type of person who gets jealous without any bases but this time, I'm starting to believe her. I got up immediately and opened the wardrobe. I took my luggage and started putting my clothes in it. I'm not sure where to go for now. All I know is I have to leave this place and the best time to do that is tonight. After moving here, I have so many clothes that Geoff bought for me, but I shouldn't bring any of them. All I need are the things that I will be using for the next days. I have some money in my bank account, and I can use that to stay hidden from all this crap while I'm thinking what to do next.After packing, I thought of how I can leave without being noticed. Nancy is sleeping in the sofa of this bedroom and I'm not sure whether I can trust her. Besides, I don't want to put her in trouble. I'm sure Regina is already sleeping at this time and the maids are also in their quarters.I sat down on the bed to think. I got t
I was discharged in the afternoon. The doctor advised me to take more rest and eat more. He said that my condition is quite sensitive, so he recommended me to stay on bed for my first trimester of pregnancy. Regina was also there and was talking to Geoff almost all morning. I saw her once looking angry while talking to him. I couldn't hear their conversation since they were almost whispering.Before I was discharged, Geoff already left the hospital. He said he is scheduled to have a meeting with the shareholders, and he can't cancel the appointment."I will come home as early as I can. If you need anything, you can tell Nancy. Sometimes, I get too busy so I can't answer your call." He explained. I couldn't feel the sincerity in all the words he said. I guess it is because I already have doubts about him. He also didn't explain why he didn't come home early yesterday like he promised. He didn't even apologize, something that I was waiting for him to say. I love him so m
Geoff came home late that night. I pretended to be sleeping when he arrived. He lied down on the bed immediately without even checking how I was. When I could hear his heavy breathes, I got up from the bed and took a blanket from the wardrobe. I can't stand staying beside him. The man whom I thought really loves me is the same man who would hurt me so bad. Everything is a lie and I will be so stupid to believe him again. I have to wait for the right time for me to leave this place and if I'm lucky, have my revenge.I woke up the next day with breakfast already set up on the coffee table next to the sofa where I slept. There is a fruit platter, bread, egg and bacon in different trays. No one would think that this breakfast is only for two people. It seems like it’s a meal for a big family. I could hear water running from the bathroom which I believe is Geoff. He is probably taking a shower now.I got up from the sofa and went back to the bedroom. I have to prepare
If there is something that I'm proud of myself, that is my optimism. Despite the experiences I had when I was younger, being bullied by my classmates and growing up with little guidance from my mom because she had to work, I am still able to find the positive side of things. I always had hope in my heart and I never kept grudges. I always tried to understand other people's behavior and attitude towards me. I used to blame myself for being different, making others notice me easily. But this time, it is a totally different. I'm not that same lady who just accepts insults and pain from others. This time, I have to learn how to stand for myself. I will deal with these things rationally. I will keep that positivity that someday, they will regret taking advantage of me.The days passed by quickly. I made myself busy with my business and learning cooking from Tess, the old house helper who used to dislike me. We grow fondness to each other, and I learned a lot from her."The
Time passed by so fast and I am now four months pregnant. For the past weeks, I was thinking of possible ways on how I can escape but everything seems impossible. One idea is to just take the train to the countryside but I'm sure the man following me would know that in an instant. Another is to pretend going on a trip overseas and never return but I'm sure Geoff will not allow me to leave on my own. I'm starting to lose hope.I have bought some baby clothes every time I go out. I buy a lot of extra clothes for babies and kids that I can sell. So far, Geoff never asked me about the credit card bills which makes me feel relieved. It means he doesn't have any clue on what I am doing. Most of the time, I have the clothes shipped to Annie's place.These days, Geoff rarely spends time at home. There are times that he came home only to get more clothes. I never got any message from Erica since the last time she informed me that she and Geoff were together. I don't care that m