Chapter 31 - Unworthy

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Paris

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"Are you ready?" I ask Eva, and she nods, whispering a yes while the familiar pain stifles my heart as I hear her heartbeat rise with fear. We came back about an hour ago from our new home, and her mood immediately shifted once we got back here. She pretended like it hadn’t, but I could see and feel that it had. I’m trying to lessen the pressure, but it’s not helping. She feels like she’s letting me down by not falling pregnant, and it’s tearing her apart. It’s making her feel unworthy.

I let her go and head to the door to let the elders in. They enter and follow me inside after greeting me. She knows what to do since this isn’t her first checkup, so she follows them toward the bathroom. I wish I could be there, but I’m not allowed in, so I head toward the window and look outside. I don't know what I'm looking at, but I'm unable to sit.

Eva confessed to me while we were in Arcamia that she went to a fertility clinic with Tory. She expected me to be mad that