A First Time

JERAH

My heart pointed against my chest as a natural response, causing me to involuntarily take a step back. The thought of looking at him directly chillede, making it impossible for me to meet his gaze.

I opened my mouth to disagree, but closed them right back. I had agreed to this. I just never thought I'd be so unready.

"I.... I don't know what to do or what..."

"There are over a hundred and one things you could do." He interrupted gruffly.

He stepped forward and tried taking my hand, but I was quick enough to pull away. I was seized by agitation.

"I don't wanna do this." My voice was uncontrollably low. Despite how hard I tried, I still couldn't look him in the face.

"Fúck what you want. You agreed to this, didn't you?" He grumped. "Now, listen real good J. This is a deal. If you not cool with it, you're free to take a walk."

Finally, I mustered the courage to look him in the face. Standing at a close range, I could stare clearly into his eyes. His good