We sat down to make our plates. We were picking up the conversation from the living room. I found myself laughing and smiling—something I hadn't done in a while. I got the feeling Axon was perfect for me, it was too bad I just got out of a breakup, but we could still be friends, couldn't we?
When the night was over, and I had walked him to the door, I found myself wishing for just five more minutes. I didn't want the night to end.
He shuffled his feet at the door and ran his fingers through his short blonde hair."Well, it was lovely meeting you, Tatianna. Do you, maybe think, that I could take you out sometime?" You could tell he was nervous about asking the question.
I smiled to reassure him and, maybe with a little too much enthusiasm, said, "Sure" Reaching out to him, I placed a peck on his cheek. Wishing I could turn it into more, but instead, I just said, "good night!" As I closed the door.
Bracing my body against the door in a swoon-worthy pose, I think back to the night I just had. I'm not looking for a boyfriend after what happened with Jackson. On the other hand, Axon seems like a nice guy, and I guess it wouldn't hurt to get to know him. A snarky voice in my head says, 'Yeah, right, you want to get more than to know him.' I push the thought to the back of my mind.
I can't believe Kate. Well, yes, I can; she's known to pull something like this. At least this guy, I like. The last guy she set me up with was incredibly dull and complacent.
Axon seems thoughtful and caring. Not boring at all, and he's incredibly handsome. For once, I'm kind of glad Kate set me up on a blind date.
I get on my laptop to check my emails. The first one I read is from my publicist.
Tatianna, the tabloids are blowing up. Can you explain this?
Underneath the email, there are a few attachments. I quickly download the attachments and cover my mouth in horror at the headline.
"Tatianna wasn't enough to settle Jackson's needs." Says Tamara Reeds.
I'm going to kill him. Jackson was screwing my nemesis. Are you freaking kidding me? There's a photo of Jackson standing beside a skinny blonde with green eyes and a fake tan on the cover.
You can run, Tatianna, but you can't hide. Where is Tatianna now? Sources say she's in Hawaii.
At least they haven't found out where I am; the photo they have of me is an old photo crying at a family member's wedding. These people have no shame.
I rub my temples and close my laptop. Perhaps I'll deal with this on another day. I only have a few more days here, and then it's back to my hectic life. On the bright side, I'll soon be shooting in Hawaii. So I won't have to go back to L.A so soon.
What on Earth possessed me to give Axon another date? I shouldn't get involved with him, especially since I'm leaving soon. There's no way I can date him with the career I have.
Kate finally comes sneaking through the door at midnight.
I furrow my eyebrows and interrogate her as a mother would her child. "Where have you been, Kate?"
She lowers her head, knowing she's in the wrong.
"Just out." She says casually.
I wag my finger to scold her."Please don't lie to me, Kate. I know you have a boyfriend, now spill."
She bites her lip and looks up at me. "my boyfriend's name is Aiden. I've been dating him for a while now. I'm sorry I didn't tell you; I figured you were having a rough time as it is, and you didn't need me gloating about my new boyfriend. I only want to see you happy. So when Aiden mentioned setting Axon up with someone, I instantly thought of you."
"Katie Bug, I am happy. I'm happy that you're happy. I'm just curious to know why you set me up on a date without telling me?"
"Because I knew you wouldn't agree to it, and you deserve to be happy. Axon is a nice guy; give him a chance."
I bit my lip and sighed, coming back down to reality."Why give him a chance Kate? I'm just going to be leaving in a few days, and I'll never see him again."
She raises her eyebrow and smirks." Well, I wouldn't necessarily say you'll never see him again."
"Spit it out, Kate; what exactly are you getting at?" I give her a look of annoyance. I hate when she beats around the bush.
She claps her hands excitedly."He has an office in LA as well as Ohio."
"You thought this all through, didn't you?" I can't decide if I'm annoyed or if I'm excited. Leave it to Kate to think of everything. How has he not heard of me?
"Kate, did you tell him about my modeling career?"
"Of course not! I know you want someone to like you for you and not because your famous."
"How much do you know about Axon?" I furrow my brow.
"Enough to know he's successful and cute."
"Wow, Katie Bug, I just can't even deal right now!"
"Enjoy his company. I'm not saying to go out and marry the guy but test the waters."
"I'm still not over, Jackson." I hang my head lower, the realization hitting me like a ton of bricks. I loved Jackson, didn't I?
"The quickest way to get over a guy is to get under another." She says, laughing.
"Have you been listening to Betty White again?"
"No!" She says with a cackle.
Kate is an advocate Golden girls lover. She adores Betty White. I'm more like Sophia or Dorothy. Hey, we can't all be a Rose.
"Come on, Tati, live a little."
"Hmm, let me think about, nope, no way not going to happen!"
She gives me her best puppy dog eyes. "Please, Tati, you need this; he needs this."
She's desperate, so I know she's hiding something."What aren't you telling me about him?"
"Well....he's gone through some things. A break up I think. I don't know to what extent Aiden didn't say.
"So I'm his rebound?"
"Don't say it like that, Tati. Will you please do this for me."
"Okay! You know I already agreed to go on a second date with him anyway. I wish he would have told me he's been through a breakup recently."
"Well, did you tell him about Jackson?" She asked, looking skeptical.
"Well, no, why would I?"
"Why not?" She says, raising an eyebrow.
"Because he's not a subject I like talking about, "I say while biting my cheek.
"Exactly; I'm sure his ex is a sore subject to talk about as well."
"I guess you're right. I guess I'll give Axon a chance. What's the worst that can happen?"
"Okay, Tati, I'm going to sleep; you should get some rest as well."
"I can't. Have you seen the tabloids?"
"Yes, that's why I told you to stay away from them."
"Well, that's kinda hard when you have the publicist I have."
"Good night, Tati, sweet dreams."
"Night, Katie Bug," I say, yawning.
Axons POV I'm glad I agreed to go on a blind date with Tatianna. Aiden was right; she's just what I needed to get my mind off of Becca. She must have thought I was a desperate fool. How was I supposed to know she was my blind date? I had felt bad that I knocked her down, and I needed a woman's perspective.It's been a long time since I've been on the prowl. Becca made sure of that. She was breathtaking, from her beautiful blonde hair to her sexy long legs. Some days I miss her, I miss us, but a part of me knew we wouldn't last. I gave her my best, but my best wasn't good enough. I know I shouldn't be thinking about her; a year is plenty enough time to get over her, but I can't. I don't understand how my love for her wasn't enough to keep her clean.She had her choice, and I've made mine. It's time I move on and stop living in the past. I miss her laugh, and I miss her smile. I miss her morning kisses, and the de
Well, that may have been a dud. My first blind date and hopefully my last. I thought we hit it off. I even agreed to a second date. Yet Axon didn't call me. I guess there's a first for everything.The days are passing by rather quickly, and soon I'll be back in LA. As of now, I'm in Honolulu doing a bikini shoot. Not my favorite thing to model, but let's be honest, all women have their insecurities. At least after this photo session, I get to meet up with Kia. I haven't seen him in forever!We met in Hawaii, he was a stand-in model, and we've been inseparable ever since. He's like a total girlfriend. It just sucks he lives so far away. I've been begging him to move to LA for over a year, but he always shoots me down."Focus, Tati baby, the sooner we get this shoot done, the sooner we can all go home." The photographer calls out to me, interrupting my thoughts."Now show me beach vibes." He orders.I sit on this rock looking out at the
The sun is beating down through the window of my little bungalow. Kia has me wrapped snuggly in his arms. He truly is my rock. After I left the club, he saw my emotional state, I may entirely be over Jackson, but my heart is not.We came home and overate on ice cream. Let me tell you, Ice cream and alcohol do not mix. I'm thankful for Kia.He begins to stir. "God who turned on the light, Tati, turn it off." He's never been a morning person, especially after a night of drinking."Kia, I can't turn off the sun. Get your lazy butt up, and let's go to the beach." I say while unwrapping myself from his death grip.He yawns and pulls a pillow over his face. "In a minute, Tati, I need my beauty sleep.""If you get anymore, I'll look like the beast next to you," I say jokingly."Fine, just know I hate you, now go get ready while I try to torture my eyes to open." His voice muffled from the pillow.I get up off the bed and walk to my dresser.
They say absence makes the heart fonder, but that couldn't be true in this case. I walk in the home Jackson and I shared for a year, for the last time. The walls are white, and everywhere I look, I see him. This place was once my home, sweet home. But I can't take it here anymore. I walk through the hall into the bedroom; nothing here has changed. His dirty clothes still lay in a pile on the floor.I've been gone for almost a month, and it doesn't look like he's changed a thing. I grab all the suitcases I own and pack the rest of my belongings. I know since it's the morning, he won't be here. It's better this way. He's not ready to let me go, but I'm damn sure prepared to let him go.Before coming back to LA, I had my real-estate agent find and furnish a penthouse. That's where my best friend Kia and I will be staying. The best part is it's on the other side of the city, away from him. I finish packing and hear voices in the hall; it sounds like Jackson and a woman's v
Axons POVI sit in my home office and stare at the phone like it's about to burst in my hand. I know I need to suck it up and call her, but it's easier said than done.LA has been a new start. I'm getting into a routine. Becca's memory is further away, but I won't lie; I still think of her from time to time. Today I'm thinking of Tatianna. Aiden informed me that she's back in LA and I'd like to see her. The problem is, I'm not sure how to begin to ask her out.Don't get me wrong, I'm a strong, confident man when it comes to business, but it is a whole other subject when it comes to Tatianna.I dial her number before I can think to change my mind. Three rings and her sweet, soft melodic voice, sings through the phone."Hello!""Hi, Tatianna!" I say sheepishly."Axon, how are you?" Tatianna asks with a sense of glee in her voice. My confidence is coming back. Is she happy to be talking to me?“ Listen, Tatianna; I was
"OUCH!" My hand hit his face in one swift move; I don't know why I smacked him. I felt terrible; he was out of line, though. The guilt gnawed at me, so I kissed him and all of his pain away. I'm a complete mess. I know this for a fact, but Axon makes me have feelings I shouldn't have." Damn Tatianna, I'm sorry, I just." Before he could finish, I kiss him again and this time with more passion."Shhhh, don't say a thing. We can finish this conversation in the morning." Shutting the door, I began kissing him fearsomely.His hands in my hair, yanking me closer to him. My body is responding to his touch; my skin is burning like it's a thousand degrees. I feel my heart kick up fifty notches higher. I'm aching, to my core. It's been so long since a man has touched me in this way, and I've enjoyed it.He kisses and sucks my sweet spots along my neck. How does he know? It's like he can read me. My hands are scratching into his back. I wouldn't object to him takin
I wake up from a great night of sleep to find my bed empty. Could I have been asleep that long? Tatianna must have snuck out in the middle of the night. I look at the clock on the wall; the clock reads a little past noon. Crap! I never sleep this long.My mind instantly replays last night's event. Tatianna took me by surprise. The way she smacked me and kissed me, I've never been so confused in my life. I can still feel her soft lips lingering on mine.I hadn't been with a woman in so long; Becca was my last. At first, my nerves took over, but after Tattianna attacked me, it brought out my primal side. I can still picture Tatianna wrapped around me, our moans mixing, drowning each other out. I wish she would have stuck around for us to go another round.My cock is pulsing and hard as a rock, just thinking of last night's events. I slip my hand around my cock and release the tension, picturing its Tatiannas lips wrapped around my shaft. It doesn't take long befor
Looking down at the phone, it beeps, signaling I have one new voice mail. My hands tremble as I pick it up. I ignored the call, knowing full well who the caller was. Truthfully I wasn't ready to face the aftermath just yet. I take a moment and debating if I should listen to the voicemail, I finally decide to click the green call button. His voice plays through my phone speaker, and the pit of my stomach drops. He knows; I can tell just by the sound of his voice. I can only imagine what the tabloids have printed about me now. I pull out my laptop and search the web for the latest scandals, and I can't believe my eyes. How the paparazzi got this picture is beyond me. It's of Axon and me kissing at his front door. A million thoughts start running through my mind. How will I even begin to make this situation work? I hate the paparazzi. I guess it's time I tell Axonthe truth. I pick up my phon