And that's how I married him

Dear diary,

There comes a point in life when death seems to be the easiest option. I knew that Toby was going to ome for me. Apparently my dad betrayed them all it is obvious that they will take out revenge on his family. It was good that my step mom was keeping Renee away from this mess.

I have never been a fan of my life but I never thought of giving it up. I always thought that maybe sooner or later it will get better but it was lame of me to think that.

But at that moment I was fed with my life. I was tired of breathing. I was terrified of waking up in the morning who knows what day had for me.

I was feeling very vulnerable. I had no one in my life. I had no reason to keep going. I wanted to end it all. I even turned on the gas knob and grabbed the matchsticks. I wanted to go the way my mom did. But then I thought that if I did it then what will be the difference between my dad and me. He killed himself when he thought that nothing was going his way. I didn't wanted to do what h