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JAXON

Emotions were underrated.

They could make or mar you.

It was one thing to have control over them and it was another thing to shut them out completely. Our emotions are like windows into our souls. They define us. They make up the essential part of us. And shutting it out only renders us void. Shutting my emotions nulled me completely and I began seeing being emotionless as a form of normalcy.

I could barely differentiate between what was real and what wasn't.

Of course, there were times when ruthlessness was a necessity. I have had to go through some phases in my life, and looking back now, if I didn't handle it with the right amount of ruthlessness, I wouldn't have scaled through that phase. Being dangerous could be necessary at times, but turning off the ability to feel wasn't a necessity.

It's a coping mechanism.

From the pain, from the grief, from the anguish, from the torture, from the despair, from the sheer agony.

And the funniest thing about a coping mechanism was that