Blaze"With him, I wouldn't be good driving. I wanna be back here, making sure he's comfortable until we hand his care over."Logan nods, and we race like hell for the helipad where the air evac will meet us to take him to the nearest trauma center an hour away. I administer anything and everything I can to make him more comfortable, watching his low blood pressure and heart rate with a critical eye.Suddenly his already low pressure begins dropping. "Trevor!" My hands shake, and for the first time, I don't know what to do. My normally instinctual training is gone and I'm scared to death. "Don't do this to me," I look around in the back of the ambulance, everything looking foreign to me. His blood pressure drops further, beeps going off everywhere and I'm lost. Tears are streaming down my face and I'm hyperventilating, unsure of what to do to help him. He's dying in front of me, and I can't help him. I gasp, jerking awake so hard that I fall off the cot I've been sleeping o
TankA few days home and I'm wishing like hell I was back in the hospital. It's not like I actually enjoyed being in the place, but there was a sense of safety I felt. Nurses were around at all times, if I needed it, there was an IV of medication that could knock me out of my misery for a few hours. No one questioned when I asked for it. There the pain wasn't so all-consuming. Doctors and nurses came in at all hours of the goddamn day and night, it gave me something else to concentrate on. In my home I can't get away from my pain, can't get away from the thoughts running through my head, can't get away from Blaze's hot body always so close to mine. I know part of the problem is I won't take the painkillers, but I hate the way they make me feel. And I can't physically take Blaze, because that's just work I can't do quite yet."Trevor, where are you?"My stomach clenches as I hear the voice of the woman-turned-angel who's overseeing my care. Having Blaze fulfill every need I have i
TankI fucking hate painkillers. I hate the way they make me feel like I'm flying, the dry mouth I get, the weird ass dreams I have. I hate it all, but I've also learned my body needs to rest. And fuck, I'm tired. More than anything, I'm tired – exhausted even. "Want to take the sweatpants off?" Blaze asks as she follows me into the bedroom. "Yeah, I'm gonna get hot. I do every time I take these damn things. They make me sweat like a meth addict."We've cut the legs off this pair to make them into shorts, but it still takes both of us working to get them down my legs, past my cast, and off my feet. I grab onto the waistline of the boxers I wear to keep them from going with them. Laying down, I help her as best I can by adjusting my leg so that it's propped up. "You comfortable?" "I'm fucking tired," I yawn, putting my arm up over my eyes. "Tired, sore, and damn sorry you have to wait on me hand and foot."That's the crux of this whole situation. When I was in the hosp
TankGoddamn, I'm having the best dream ever. Blaze's hand is on my boxers, cupping my dick with her small hand. It hasn't seen action since the last time she and I were together six months ago, so it's got a mind of its own.Not to say I haven't jerked it. I have, but there's no one who can get me off the way she does. Blaze isn't one of those let's do it in the dark with the lights off on days that start in T kind of women. She's very sexually aware and knows exactly what she wants. No playing coy with her, she'd much rather grab you by the balls and stick her finger up your ass to make sure you get off hard. Which is why, when I realize this isn't a dream and her hand is actually down my boxers wrapped around my cock, I have to put my own hand down there and grip the base to keep from coming."Holy shit," the oath is ripped from my throat as I groan, forcing my eyes open against the lingering effects of the painkillers. "Blaze, I'm gonna come," I grit my teeth against the n
Tank"How are you really doing?"I fight not to roll my eyes at my older sister. She's my second mother, has been since the day I was born. I remember her dressing me up and showing me off to her friends when I was little. I'm glad there aren't any pictures because I looked like a horrible Cabbage Patch Doll reject if I recall correctly. It never bothered me, but sometimes her need to mother me is suffocating, especially as I got older and started living my own life. It's never cool to have two moms breathing down your neck, and that's exactly what I have some days. "Save all your motherly concerns for my niece. She should be here very soon," I give her a slight grin, adjusting my leg on the couch in the den. I hope the grin softens the blow of my tone. I'm not in the mood for it today. If I'm honest, I'm not even in the mood for my own company. Given carte blanche, I'd probably tell them all to get out.I hate sitting here, almost like I'm holding court. Blaze sits in the rec
TankHearing the surgeon speak isn't making me feel much better. If anything, it's making me feel worse. This is a longer recovery than I thought it would be."Six weeks before I can bear weight on it?" I question to make sure I've heard him correctly. Fuck me running.He nods. "That's right, Trevor, could be sooner though, everyone heals different. I'm giving you worst-case scenario. Keep in mind your six weeks started while you were in the hospital. You've already survived a portion of it. At six weeks we'll make a decision if we can take off the cast and outfit you with a brace. Provided everything is going well, you'll be able to bear weight, as long as it all looks good, and along the way we'll work on getting strength back with the physical therapy. All in all, if things go well, I'm looking to get you back to work in twelve weeks. You're strong and in good shape, we may be able to move that time frame up."Motherfucker. Twelve weeks before I can get back to work? Three m
TankI'm sore from the physical therapy session I had yesterday. I'm ashamed to say I haven't really moved from the couch and it's nearly mid-morning. "Do you want another pain pill today or just an over-the-counter medication?" Blaze asks as she brings me some toast."Over the counter is fine. I'm sore, but it's nothing I can't deal with. I'm going to have to learn to deal with some pain."She leans down, kissing me on the cheek. "You do better with pain than a lot of other people, give yourself some credit."I didn't eat last night and the toast is making my mouth water. After coming home from the PT session, Blaze helped me shower, and when I fell into bed, I slept for the rest of the night. Now my stomach is clenching with hunger pains. I inhale one piece in two bites."Do you need something else to eat, Trev?" she shoots me a look as she watches me.I've been trying to eat light, because when pain hits me, it can make me nauseous and I've already puked twice. This m
BlazeTen Days Later"You're sure it's okay for me to put myself back on the rotation for next week?" I ask Trevor as I sit on his bed, watching him get ready for the day."I think it'll be all good," he says as he sets his crutch to the side, working to put his shirt on one arm and then the other before pulling it over his head.I'm pensive when I maybe shouldn't be. It's been a month since he wrecked, almost three weeks since he was released from the hospital, but I worry he's overdoing it. Fact of the matter is Trevor's starting to look and act more like his old self. Two more weeks with the no weight-bearing and then he'll be able to walk on his own. He won't need me, and I'll have to get back to work. I can't keep hovering over him like some den mother. Today for instance, he's dressing himself and not sweating like a stuck pig. He truly is getting better. "Then I'll call and have them put me back on rotation. Hopefully Logan's still free."He shoots me an almost bore