She stood there for hours, in her chair , with her eyes closed and holding her mother's necklace. Calm and cold as if this was not happening.
This is the way Patrick found her when he came back to her room.
“Hey!” he whispered .”Why are you staying here alone when outside the sun is so warm?”
Sarah opened her eyes and smiled at him, but not as she was doing on a normal day. She forced herself to look like she would not die today.
Why make Patrick sad ? Just as that Bible verse said “ Sufficient unto the day is the evil thereof. (Matthew 6:25-34)”
It’s enough that she feels like shit, he doesn’t deserve to feel as well.
“You didn’t leave back to your pack yet?” she asked him and stood on her feet.
“No, I will go there tomorrow, but today I wanted to stay a little bit more with you.” Patrick said.
“ Would you accompany me to the forest this afternoon?” and he looked at her smiling, making her think at the doctor’s words. The chain food. He is the top and he is beyond happy, while she is on the bottom struggling to live her last day on earth with dignity.
“So?” He asked her again seeing that she was a little bit lost in her own thoughts.
“Yes, I would like that” she whispered, touching her mother's necklace subconsciously.
“Is beautiful!” Patrick said, coming near and looking at it.
“Yes, it is. It was my mom’s.” and she walks away from him. “Are we going?” she asks him.
“Of course, let’s have our walk like usual,” he said and took the lead, grabbing her arm and holding her closer to him.
“That’s a good idea” and this time Sarah agreed with a strong smile that was also fake but to Patrick it seemed so normal that he just started to walk.
“I always like this territory” Patrick said looking around while they were walking around the forest. This place has a good vibe, you know?”
“It has” Sarah said shortly, trying to compose herself and look normal.
“You are sad today,” suddenly Patrick said but seeing him like this Sarah changed the topic.
“Of course I am Patrick. Every time we went on a walk you gave me something” and she smiled at him, making him laugh.
“Shit! You are right. Today I came with bare hands. Shame on me!” he said laughing.
“I would have liked to eat something sweetly” Sarah said giggling, but this was not her giggle, it was a sound of inner desperation.
“Tell me what you would have liked to eat and I will bring it to you next time, in double size to compensate for the fact that today I didn’t bring anything.” and he laughs seeing her thinking and frowning.
“I would have liked to eat candy!” She stated, ”Eating candies makes me happy!”
“I promise that I will bring you a lot of candies next time!”
“There will be no next time” Sarah said in her mind but she just looked at him and continued.
“It must be the sweetest candy you will find in your pack, or I will not eat it!”
“We have a deal!” Patrick said and took her hand in his hand.
“Let’s go this way!” and he pulled her after him but the road took them to the crystal lake where Tania just died a few days ago and seeing this place, Patrick exclaimed.
“I have never seen a place more beautiful than this!” but just a look at Sarah and he knew that something was not right.
“Sarah,” he whispered. “What’s going on?”
“This is the place,” she whispered, looking at the deep waters. “Here is the place where my mother died.”
“Shit!” And Patrick turned her so she would not face the lake.
“I am so sorry I didn’t realize that this was the place where everything happened. Let’s go from here!” and he grabbed her and tried to make her leave, but Sarah stood unmoved.
“Let’s go, Sarah!” Patrick insisted. “ I will take you back home!”
“Can you leave me alone, please?” she whispered, turning her face and looking in his eyes.
“No, I can't, this is not a place to be alone after all that happened here.”
“Look at me , Patrick,” Sarah said. “I am fine, but I didn’t have the chance to say goodbye to my mom. I just need a few moments alone with her, because this fantastic crystal lake that you like so much for me is her grave.”
And Patrick realized what she just said and putting his hands on her shoulders said:
“Just don’t be late or I will be worried about you”
“I promise that I will come back as soon as I have this little time with my mom. I just want to tell her how much I miss her '' And she just gave him a small smile, the first authentic smile, because this is a sad one.
“Alright,” Patrick said and went back to the pack , looking back numerous times, until Sarah was not in his view anymore.
“I am back ,mom,” Sarah whispered, sitting on the grass near the lake with her knees tight to her chest.
“A lot of things have happened since you left me here alone, but I know why you did it. I understand now and I want you to know that I am not mad at you anymore for doing it.”
And she looked at the water that has no tacke of waves and it looks like a gigantic mirror.
“Do you want to find something ?” and she just closed her eyes and lay on her back on the grass facing the sky.
“We will see tonight, mom. They got me. You were right! You were so right…”
And she feels like some invisible tears that never flowed on her face start to muffle her voice.
“I am sorry just because I met a guy that I thought was worthy. He is so good , mom! And he is nice to me when the rest of the world is not. You would have liked him, I am sure”
And just thinking of Patrick she whispered.
“I just...I don’t want to die today. I want to live, mom. I want to run away from this place” and she opens her eyes, looking at the flying birds in the sky, at the clouds that flow freely where the wind is driving them.
“I want to run from here!” she said heartbroken “But I know that is impossible. You would have run from here, if it was possible, wouldn't it?”
“What if we will ask Patrick to help us?” Gal asked.
“I wanted to tell him about this countless times today” Sarah said “But what if he can’t? We have only two more hours . If he knows about this and he will not be able to help us, don’t you think that he will blame himself and feel guilty?”
“Shit you are right! He will never be able to get over this, he is just a good guy with a big heart!”
“I think that too” and looking at her watch she stands up and whispers waving to the lake.
“See you soon mom!”
“Let’s end this, Gal.” she said and went back home.
“I am afraid,” Gal whispered. “I didn’t even have my first shift,” the poor wolf howls.
“I am not. I am not afraid of death. When mom tried to kill me I was not afraid that she would succeed, I was afraid that when Patrick would find out he would be sad. As sad as I was when mom died. “
“I will miss him too.” Gal said. “You are right, Sarah. Let's end this and have our piece, because in this world it seems that we will never find it.”
And she walked back home, praying to the goddess to help Patrick after she died.
But when she was approaching the packhouse, just as happened in the morning she heard beta Jim Thompson, her father's younger brother.
“She must know something and will run away for sure, she is just like her mother. She will never let us get her. She will find a way to run and ruin everything!”
And Sarah just stood there because she knows who he is talking with, and her heart almost stops hearing Patrick say:
“She won’t. We've been together just now, and she said she'll be right back. She just needs some time to settle her mind but she will come back.”
“Sarah…”Gal whispered and her mind is on fire, all her thoughts are running and a lot of things start to come in her mind. A lot of memories with Patrick, every single word he ever told her now looks different.
“No, we can't trust her. I must send someone to get her back .” and he mindlink Mark to search for her but Patrick stops him.
“This isn't her first time to donate blood, Jim. If she wanted to escape, she would have run away since the first time. Why would she run now when everything is almost over ? Don’t you think that you are overreacting?”
“I..” Jim Thompson started to stutter. “Alright, I will trust you if you said that you watched her and she is fine with this.” but at the same time he mindlink Mark and tells him to search for her, ignoring Patrick's words.
And while they started to walk away, Sarah just stood there and she couldn't believe what she heard.
“How big is this lie, Gal?”
“I don’t know , but the bigger the lie is, the easier it is to believe it.” Sarah said feeling how she becomes more and more pale because after all this, her heart can’t find the force to beat anymore.
“He lied us…He lied us too.”
“I thought that he didn’t know about my horrible life, but he knew all this time,” she said to Gal. “He knew how miserable my life was and he just stood and watched me as I struggled to survive!”“I can’t stand it anymore!” she yelled in her mind “I..I just need to get out of here!”She remembered everything and all those thoughts that were running through her mind in the last few minutes now were revealed through the light of a new plot. Plot which was not new at all but it was there from the beginning.They fooled her.Her father, her siblings, the pack doctor, Patrick…everything was a fucking lie! And she was thinking of asking Patrick for help!“Shit!” She just stood there and caught the bridge of her nose trying to focus and think about what she should do.“Run or die!” gal stated “ Those are our options!”“I thought that he loves us , Gal. After mom died he was there, he took my hand in his hand and told me that everything will be fine! Someone will love you! Those were his own
“Sarah!” Patrick called her but she just walked away from the lake, from Ian, from everything, without looking back.“Sarah, don’t be like that!”” He said, seeing her that she is just ignoring him and keeps walking without saying anything and this is something he just realized that it’s kind of upsetting.“Why did you act so rough with her, Ian?” Bart asked but Ian just stopped and let her go. In the end she was returning to her father's packhouse and this was what counts. Without her the blood exchange ceremony couldn't start, isn't it?He watched her moving away, he watched her delicate figure, her long brown hair fluttering in the breeze, until she was only a small point in the horizon and a lot of thoughts started to run in his mind. She never acted like this, he has been seeing her almost everyday since this blood change ceremony started.It is true that she was more and more pale every day but with him she was always smiling, even today, in the morning she was laughing and askin
“Goddess!” Sarah screamed in her heart as soon as she closed the door behind Patrick.“Hey, they don’t deserve our tears!” Gal said.“Everyone left us, Gal! We don't have anyone in this world to care about us, but at least we have each other.” and Sarah put the book on her desk , because the truth is she never intended to read, it was just a reason to make Patrick leave.“We are so alone in this big world that it’s scary, Gal.” and tears start to run again on her face, but those are not tears of fear, tears of pain. Are somehow, in all this madness, tears of relief.Someone once said that betrayal can be a gift.“Everyone laid to us. All this time all they wanted was to save Amber, no matter what. My life is not important. Mom was right, Gal. Mom was so right.”“You have me, Sarah.” Gal whispered “To the end, I will be by your side”“But the end is so close, Gal. And I didn’t have time to be happy in this world, to have our first shift, our first run, to find my mate.”“Is better this
“Just sit here and drink this cure!” the doctor said without looking at Sarah. And how would he have been able to look in her eyes when he knew too well what he was giving her to drink?“Cure?” Sarah asked laughing bitterly “Oh my goddess” she whispered and lifting her gaze she saw Mark and the doctor’s assistant watching her with concern.“Let’s do this, give me that so-called cure you said about” and Sarah holds out her arms and takes the “cure” from the doctor.“Drink it to the bottom,” Her father said. “Don’t let not even a single drop inside that recipient or the cure will not work” he said commandingly, while Amber, her sister was just smiling.“Can’t we start it?” she said “I am tired of waiting. I want to be healthy and meet my future husband, she said, accentuating the last words to stab Sarah in her heart, because she knew too well that Sarah and Patrick had a good relationship.Sarah just looked around.“What the hell , Gal? Isn’t it here not even a single person to care ab
“Sarah..” he heard her name being called.“We did it , Gal” she said “We are free.” and she just stood there, trying to find the strength to open her eyes.“Why am I feeling like this?” and Gal escaped a soft growl “I thought that on the other side there would be no more pain. I feel like shit!”But hearing what Gal just said Sarah realized something and focusing on everything she heard around the doctor’s voice.“This was not a part of the plan. Why the hell did you give her her sister blood?”“Oh my goddess!” Gal yelled “We are still here? We are not dead yet?” and he starts to cry so hard that brooked Sarah’s heart.“We are together in this, Gal. I am here, “ she whispered and tried to focus around to find out why she was still alive.“He will break our legs for this” the doctor said and she felt his hands over her arms , probably searching for her pulse and blood pressure.“We could say that she simply resisted, he doesn’t need to know that I gave her the blood that we exchanged f
Next day at breakfast Sarah just went to the kitchen as she always did before this madness with changing blood to start at this level and she opened the fridge searching for something to eat but nothing looked good.“Why are you here?’ She heard a woman's voice behind her back.“Luna Marcella” Sarah said turning around and bowed her head in front of her auntie. Pete Thompson’s Luna is her mother's sister. She hated Sarah from the first day of her life, since Pete Thompson brought her into his house and his illegitimate child.The only reason she tolerated her around was the fact that Amber was sick and her husband promised her that he will use this child as a cure for their daughter. He promised her that after Amber will be healed she will not be around anymore and yet, here she is in the middle of her kitchen, remembering her about her fucking drunken husband who raped her own sister.“Why are you here? I asked you something!” and she almost growls making Pete Thompson search for her
Sarah just stood in her room and looked at the milk and the cereal she took from the kitchen and after seeing ther so-called family now her appetite began to fade.“I am sick of this!” She whispered and put the food on her desk and closing her eyes she thought again at her mother's last words “I finally am free” and she was so envious of her but she can’t focus on anything else because her door opens and she turns around just to see Mark in the door.“So the bastard daughter is alive,” he said, laughing in her face.Sarah just looked at him,“I think that he is bipolar, Gal” she said in her mind. “He is smiling at us just to destroy us in the next second. He says “I am sorry” just to wear me down and trample on me. I think he is sick.”“He was just smiling at us in the kitchen” Gal said annoyed and now he calls us bastards?”“Are you mute?” Mark asked her but she just watches him, not knowing what he is looking for.He takes a few steps in her room and looking around sees the food she
“Get out of my sight !” Amber said walking the halls of the pack house, and seeing Sarah she can't help herself and push her, making her to unbalance and almost hit the ground.“Amber!” Mark growled seeing the whole scene and he wanted to say a few words to his rude sister but thinking about and looking at Sarah he changed his mind.“Don’t push her, Amber. If the blood exchange doesn’t work we will still need her. In the end it is a good thing that she survived” and he said that mocking Sarah in her face.“There is nothing that could go wrong!” Amber laughed in his face. “I am already healed. I ‘ve never felt so strong and healthy. Even Patrick said that and now we are preparing our wedding!” she grinned at Sarah.“He’s now focused on serious things and on our relationship. In the end we will be husband and wife in two weeks. “ and she looked at Sarah saying that because she wants revenge for all those times when Patrick came in the pack and ignored her for Sarah.“Congratulations!” S